Can't wait for a GREAT New Years!
I knew the end of the year was going to be a bad one...today I have been in a bad mood all day, and can't get out of it. I managed to for a little while with my mom, but that came and went. No matter what, I love my mom and everything she does for me.
Tomorrow is New Years Eve, and I could not be more unhappy. It is very possible that I will be sitting here alone starring at the TV while some ball drops to mark the very first part of the year when couples are supposed to embrace and be happy to set the tone for the new year. How am I setting the tone? By myself, I'll be here in SC no where near my friends from Miami, away from my friends who I went to high school, and away from my boyfriend. Great!
The whole thing makes me want to sleep right through the ball dropping. I don't want to know how I am setting the new year. I would rather have a year full of sleep than a year of being by myself and feeling distant from everyone I care about. Is it too much to ask for physical contact sometimes? I'm not being sexual for once, but really I don't do well alone, and thats where I am right now.
Tomorrow is New Years Eve, and I could not be more unhappy. It is very possible that I will be sitting here alone starring at the TV while some ball drops to mark the very first part of the year when couples are supposed to embrace and be happy to set the tone for the new year. How am I setting the tone? By myself, I'll be here in SC no where near my friends from Miami, away from my friends who I went to high school, and away from my boyfriend. Great!
The whole thing makes me want to sleep right through the ball dropping. I don't want to know how I am setting the new year. I would rather have a year full of sleep than a year of being by myself and feeling distant from everyone I care about. Is it too much to ask for physical contact sometimes? I'm not being sexual for once, but really I don't do well alone, and thats where I am right now.