sorry guys..long entry
2005 just started and ive already had some ups and downs. ive been thinking alot about everything lately. its been over a month since we put duke to sleep. im still hurting alot from that. every now and then i have a good cry about everything. especially duke. dont get me wrong,im happy right now. i have awesome friends. but i hate home. its not like it used to be when i was younger. i wish my family was like it was years ago. now i dont talk to anyone in my family except for my mom. even my relationship with her is turning bad. thats not good at all. i already lost my sister. we havent talked in over 2 months. no one understands me and i hate it. no one can really relate to my life. i was looking through some old pictures last night/my scrap book bday present..and i realized that even though how much heartache some old friends put you through..you still had some awesome memories. i know im gonna be a hypocrite for saying this but..i miss my old friends. i miss all the old times we used to have. talking on the phone 4 waying eachother all the time. eating ice cream and just being lazy some days. begging for sleepovers.. even though we have been through so much..i cant just forget about them. i still havent..and i never will. my friends now. i love them to death. i have so much fun with everyone. right now..i have 4 best friends who i love so much. i never wanna lose them. now i realize what i lost before..i now know i have to be very careful. dont let stupid fights ruin a strong friendship. if you do..it will never be the same.
im sorry guys..this is just whats been on my mind for a while..
NEWAYSSS..
ive been thinking about my Sweet 16. im gonna have it in June. right after school ends so i know who will def. come and stuff. i know its 2 months before my birthday..but oh well..im probly gonna go start looking for places to have it when my dad gets back from Florida.
on another note..Maria's Sweet 16 was AMAZING!! maria you looked gorgeous!!! i love you!
i cant upload pics bc my mom lost my UV cable!! GRRR..
uhhh idk what else to say..ill update later..
<3Karen
im sorry guys..this is just whats been on my mind for a while..
NEWAYSSS..
ive been thinking about my Sweet 16. im gonna have it in June. right after school ends so i know who will def. come and stuff. i know its 2 months before my birthday..but oh well..im probly gonna go start looking for places to have it when my dad gets back from Florida.
on another note..Maria's Sweet 16 was AMAZING!! maria you looked gorgeous!!! i love you!
i cant upload pics bc my mom lost my UV cable!! GRRR..
uhhh idk what else to say..ill update later..
<3Karen