wow...its been so long
jesus christ i forgot i had this thing.
last time i wrote was in what? november? i dont know... and that seems like years ago.
since then, bob and i got back together for a while, as usual... he promised me the world and then ripped it all away again. thank god. right? haha. now we hardly talk and when we do, we fight, per usual. who cares.
alot has changed.
but i'll just write about the present
last night kristee and i went to rita the psychic in westport and it was amazing. shes such an awesome old lady... from the second i walked in i knew i'd like her. before we even sat down she said "so your going to a party tonight? i see alot of heads? some you dont like so much huh."
i went on to tell her that there was a party in providence at doyle and i was hesitant about going. she said "You always are... your torn between seeing your friends and seeing someone in particular." bob. we sat down and i shuffled the playing cards and made the rows like she said and she went on to tell me about alot of things without me saying a word.
she knew i lived off of stafford road, she knew i just moved home to my parents house adn that they werent doing so hot a few years back but that they are great right now. she told me that my brother has a good heart and he watches out for me, that he is in a similar situation with an ex and that we both know what we want but also know the obsticles that lie in the way. she said he is trying, as much as i dont believe him, to find someone new, just like i am, but that ultimatly he will end up with "the one that lives far away" as much as i dont want it. (lisa...in cali). but that he will be happy.
she saw three boys. two a little older, one my age. one was andrew vital (described as the boy whose family owns a buisness that deals with water, lots of water. he was a nice one, my family loved him.) she told me to talk to him and make sure he's doing ok. we'll see. the next was described as the one "with all the facial hair, and lots ontop of his head" bob. "he's got an attitude with you, he and the other one (the other one was Randy and she kept talking about how alike bob and randy are). he has a good heart too and its yours. those two love you and your friend but they cant handle that relationship that you both need. they are too young and lost." could she be more right?
the last boy caught me offguard as i was expecting her to talk about brett.. the last of my three ex's. but she said who is 23? and i ran through the mental rolladex and i said well my friend crystal is going to be 23 and she said no no its a boy... she described him as "the boy who's always changing his hair color, god i can smell the bleach" les just bleached his hair the other day. in the two years i've known him he's gone from blonde to black, to maroon, to black with blonde, to blonde with black and now back to blonde. she just kept smiling and she said "you like that one." and i said "nah, im not too sure about that" and she said "no no, i know this, you like him. maybe not right now right now you are just good friends...does he live in dartmouth" and i said no but we work together there... she said "yeah well, its always weird when you work together"... she went on to ask about salvation army... les got me a record from there, and she described the gift he just gave me of Queens "The Game" on vinyl, framed.
she said within the year i will either meet someone or develop something with one of those three. more accuratly toward the end she said she sees nothing too incredible for me until the beginning of next year, so apparently i'll just be miserable til then.
who's going to be 21? i said, me and kristee will be...she stopped me and said no who is going to be 21... a boy. Bob. she said he wont say anything and he and i will have little contact until then, but he will be expecting something from me, "You like to make things for him dont you" and i said yes. she said you might not feel like it now, but you will then. youll make him something and he will cherish and appreciate it and he will do the same for you on your birthday... which is in november right? i said yes. she said "november what 16th?" I said yes... she said "My birthday too." and went on.
she said "So your going to a party tonight" i said "maybe" she said "No, your going to go. you do this every time kate! you always are so hesitant to go but you go anyway thinking it will be fine and it just might. but im telling you right now if something happens, or those two do something to hurt either of you, you leave imediatly. don't wait around and think it will get better because this time it wont. you just have to leave. thats how you'll show them. it will be on their minds all night."
so we went to the party, and we left randomly after bob and randy were play fighting on the floor infront of us to get our attention. kristee just looked at me and said "wanna go?" and i said yea and me her crystal and son all walked out randomly and left haha told people who stopped us that we were" going to get some air" im sure it was on their minds all night.
there were a few other things she said... i have notes... but i cant remember it all right now. im definitly going back. one very good thing she said is that crystals bday and me and kristees will be excellent for us.
hell fucking yea bitchessssss
last time i wrote was in what? november? i dont know... and that seems like years ago.
since then, bob and i got back together for a while, as usual... he promised me the world and then ripped it all away again. thank god. right? haha. now we hardly talk and when we do, we fight, per usual. who cares.
alot has changed.
but i'll just write about the present
last night kristee and i went to rita the psychic in westport and it was amazing. shes such an awesome old lady... from the second i walked in i knew i'd like her. before we even sat down she said "so your going to a party tonight? i see alot of heads? some you dont like so much huh."
i went on to tell her that there was a party in providence at doyle and i was hesitant about going. she said "You always are... your torn between seeing your friends and seeing someone in particular." bob. we sat down and i shuffled the playing cards and made the rows like she said and she went on to tell me about alot of things without me saying a word.
she knew i lived off of stafford road, she knew i just moved home to my parents house adn that they werent doing so hot a few years back but that they are great right now. she told me that my brother has a good heart and he watches out for me, that he is in a similar situation with an ex and that we both know what we want but also know the obsticles that lie in the way. she said he is trying, as much as i dont believe him, to find someone new, just like i am, but that ultimatly he will end up with "the one that lives far away" as much as i dont want it. (lisa...in cali). but that he will be happy.
she saw three boys. two a little older, one my age. one was andrew vital (described as the boy whose family owns a buisness that deals with water, lots of water. he was a nice one, my family loved him.) she told me to talk to him and make sure he's doing ok. we'll see. the next was described as the one "with all the facial hair, and lots ontop of his head" bob. "he's got an attitude with you, he and the other one (the other one was Randy and she kept talking about how alike bob and randy are). he has a good heart too and its yours. those two love you and your friend but they cant handle that relationship that you both need. they are too young and lost." could she be more right?
the last boy caught me offguard as i was expecting her to talk about brett.. the last of my three ex's. but she said who is 23? and i ran through the mental rolladex and i said well my friend crystal is going to be 23 and she said no no its a boy... she described him as "the boy who's always changing his hair color, god i can smell the bleach" les just bleached his hair the other day. in the two years i've known him he's gone from blonde to black, to maroon, to black with blonde, to blonde with black and now back to blonde. she just kept smiling and she said "you like that one." and i said "nah, im not too sure about that" and she said "no no, i know this, you like him. maybe not right now right now you are just good friends...does he live in dartmouth" and i said no but we work together there... she said "yeah well, its always weird when you work together"... she went on to ask about salvation army... les got me a record from there, and she described the gift he just gave me of Queens "The Game" on vinyl, framed.
she said within the year i will either meet someone or develop something with one of those three. more accuratly toward the end she said she sees nothing too incredible for me until the beginning of next year, so apparently i'll just be miserable til then.
who's going to be 21? i said, me and kristee will be...she stopped me and said no who is going to be 21... a boy. Bob. she said he wont say anything and he and i will have little contact until then, but he will be expecting something from me, "You like to make things for him dont you" and i said yes. she said you might not feel like it now, but you will then. youll make him something and he will cherish and appreciate it and he will do the same for you on your birthday... which is in november right? i said yes. she said "november what 16th?" I said yes... she said "My birthday too." and went on.
she said "So your going to a party tonight" i said "maybe" she said "No, your going to go. you do this every time kate! you always are so hesitant to go but you go anyway thinking it will be fine and it just might. but im telling you right now if something happens, or those two do something to hurt either of you, you leave imediatly. don't wait around and think it will get better because this time it wont. you just have to leave. thats how you'll show them. it will be on their minds all night."
so we went to the party, and we left randomly after bob and randy were play fighting on the floor infront of us to get our attention. kristee just looked at me and said "wanna go?" and i said yea and me her crystal and son all walked out randomly and left haha told people who stopped us that we were" going to get some air" im sure it was on their minds all night.
there were a few other things she said... i have notes... but i cant remember it all right now. im definitly going back. one very good thing she said is that crystals bday and me and kristees will be excellent for us.
hell fucking yea bitchessssss