Planetary Cleansing/Ass Kicking
OK, is it me, or does this picture remind you of the Wizard of Oz (hint: "We represent the Lollipop Guild, the Lollipop Guild, the Lollipop Guild..."? 
anyway...
happy almost Chinese new year and happy almost mercury retrograde (did I just say happy mercury retrograde? egads).
I have been HELLA SICK since December 22. The winter solstice. WTF earth changes messing with my sacred vehicle? It's been a whole saga, but to nutshell it..... everyone I know has this "thing" that is "going around" and my homeopath who is incredibly intuitive, but does not F around with illness and will urge someone to seek out care if she thinks that person needs it... and she is telling me that the most massive planetary and universal shifting is taking place (feels more like massive universal shitting to me) and EVERYONE has this "thing". Starts out in the throat, progresses to a bad, bad cold, feels kinda like the flu but has no fever, then once you feel like you are getting better, you have wave after wave of "relapse". According to What's Up on Planet Earth, this is totally in alignment with everything that is happening.
That's where I am at. I feel crummy physically... but emotionally have been doing so much clearing that I have to pause to take stock of that and be grateful. Emotionally, I've reached a critical decision point of taking charge of my parenting abilities/gifts and I've stopped looking all around for validation. Only I know how to be Violet's mom. She chose me and Charlie as her parents, and she entrusted us to the task. We have soul contracted with her. I can do this and I don't need my friends' approval or "rah rah". It does feel good to have it, but I'm not desperate for it anymore.
A LOT of this has stemmed from missing Mom and wishing that I had her to call upon. And I do, just not in the way that I am used to. And anyway, I just don't need the layers of pain and loneliness creating a veil that shields me from touching the Divine in this sacred relationship we have created.
I'm also releasing layer after layer of needing to be a victim in my relationship with Charlie. He is awesome and he's always doing his best to love and honor me, and I don't always do my best to do that for him. But I am now. I don't need to have hurt feelings anymore. I don't want to make room for unnecessary pain. I am opening my heart and welcoming in the higher vibrations and love.
I love this girl so intensely that my heart explodes into great lotus blossoms every single moment. She is teaching me how to love her daddy even more. I give profound gratitude for this grace.
anyway...
happy almost Chinese new year and happy almost mercury retrograde (did I just say happy mercury retrograde? egads).
I have been HELLA SICK since December 22. The winter solstice. WTF earth changes messing with my sacred vehicle? It's been a whole saga, but to nutshell it..... everyone I know has this "thing" that is "going around" and my homeopath who is incredibly intuitive, but does not F around with illness and will urge someone to seek out care if she thinks that person needs it... and she is telling me that the most massive planetary and universal shifting is taking place (feels more like massive universal shitting to me) and EVERYONE has this "thing". Starts out in the throat, progresses to a bad, bad cold, feels kinda like the flu but has no fever, then once you feel like you are getting better, you have wave after wave of "relapse". According to What's Up on Planet Earth, this is totally in alignment with everything that is happening.
That's where I am at. I feel crummy physically... but emotionally have been doing so much clearing that I have to pause to take stock of that and be grateful. Emotionally, I've reached a critical decision point of taking charge of my parenting abilities/gifts and I've stopped looking all around for validation. Only I know how to be Violet's mom. She chose me and Charlie as her parents, and she entrusted us to the task. We have soul contracted with her. I can do this and I don't need my friends' approval or "rah rah". It does feel good to have it, but I'm not desperate for it anymore.
A LOT of this has stemmed from missing Mom and wishing that I had her to call upon. And I do, just not in the way that I am used to. And anyway, I just don't need the layers of pain and loneliness creating a veil that shields me from touching the Divine in this sacred relationship we have created.
I'm also releasing layer after layer of needing to be a victim in my relationship with Charlie. He is awesome and he's always doing his best to love and honor me, and I don't always do my best to do that for him. But I am now. I don't need to have hurt feelings anymore. I don't want to make room for unnecessary pain. I am opening my heart and welcoming in the higher vibrations and love.
I love this girl so intensely that my heart explodes into great lotus blossoms every single moment. She is teaching me how to love her daddy even more. I give profound gratitude for this grace.