images during the journey
Love and blessings,
I see that I have not LJ'd in almost 3 weeks..... but I am here... and busy... and pregnant ;)
I'm now 29 weeks pregnant, I'm officially in my 3rd trimester (holy crap).
Mira took these and other photos of me last week... she also shared some New Year's Eve photos with me, from when I was 5 weeks pregnant (!) and did not exactly look it, but had "the glow"... now that I'm looking at a picture, I can see what that means..
... glowing that I have a spark of life twinkling within me; the tiny seed of my love germinating... we are embarking on a new journey so unknown to us and yet we feel elated...
my body is not without its discomforts and 'growing pains' right now... lots of chronic pain in my sacrum and right hip.. I am carrying so low that everything in my low spine and lower abdomen are compressed. I have to pee all the time and my cervix is pretty uncomfortable but it's amazingly OK. I feel the baby kick, roll, bump me around, I can watch my belly move, we speak to the baby and the baby responds by moving about... it's phenomenal. and I love how my body looks, even though it's so different and my regular clothes don't fit me now and my summer maternity clothes aren't exactly all flattering. Being naked is fun. :) Wearing clothes that show off my baby bump is also fun. My body does not look like other pregnant bodies I have seen. It is mine. My belly button is still a deep "innie" and does not look like it will pop out. My belly is so low that it looks like it is hanging down, not a big round thing that pops directly out in front of me. That's my baby - s/he likes to hang low.
on Sunday I attended a Blessingway for Joc - I had facilitated her first Blessingway when she was pregnant with Maya, and she coordinated and designed this one (now for baby Beatrice, on her way imminently) in its entirety. It was beautiful, emotional, charged with energy and Divine Mother, permeated with love, and had a true network of strong and loving women in her life. I can't imagine why I was thinking I could not coordinate one for myself (duh). I am so going to do this as well. It's such a powerful way to acknowledge this most significant rite of passage.
on Monday I attended a Homa that was officiated by Amma (Sri Karunamayi). I had never been in Amma's presence before. She gave special blessings to the Homa attendees after the ceremony, which was not scheduled but she does love to bless people. As I approached her, I asked her to bless my baby and she did! She said "Of course! Special blessings to you and your baby" and she touched my belly. I told the baby that s/he has been meeting all the gurus... since last month I got to greet Gurudev and Muniji in NYC and Muniji personally acknowledged me and my baby... an unofficial blessing.... this baby is having a fun spring so far!
I've been sleeping kind of badly because lying down is no longer comfortable for me at this point of pregnancy. I need about 9 pillows to prop myself up on like some sort of recliner. It's about time for me to go finagle the bedding again for bedtime. Charlie is enjoying it though, since we have somehow begun to share a pillow to rest our heads upon. Oh, right... it's because I am now using his pillow! haha.
We're enjoying this time together very much. The intimacy of knowing that we are growing a baby and yet that we still have privacy, quietude, time to ourselves... every moment is incredibly precious and we are in deep appreciation of this time.
xoxo
M.
I see that I have not LJ'd in almost 3 weeks..... but I am here... and busy... and pregnant ;)
I'm now 29 weeks pregnant, I'm officially in my 3rd trimester (holy crap).
Mira took these and other photos of me last week... she also shared some New Year's Eve photos with me, from when I was 5 weeks pregnant (!) and did not exactly look it, but had "the glow"... now that I'm looking at a picture, I can see what that means..
... glowing that I have a spark of life twinkling within me; the tiny seed of my love germinating... we are embarking on a new journey so unknown to us and yet we feel elated...
my body is not without its discomforts and 'growing pains' right now... lots of chronic pain in my sacrum and right hip.. I am carrying so low that everything in my low spine and lower abdomen are compressed. I have to pee all the time and my cervix is pretty uncomfortable but it's amazingly OK. I feel the baby kick, roll, bump me around, I can watch my belly move, we speak to the baby and the baby responds by moving about... it's phenomenal. and I love how my body looks, even though it's so different and my regular clothes don't fit me now and my summer maternity clothes aren't exactly all flattering. Being naked is fun. :) Wearing clothes that show off my baby bump is also fun. My body does not look like other pregnant bodies I have seen. It is mine. My belly button is still a deep "innie" and does not look like it will pop out. My belly is so low that it looks like it is hanging down, not a big round thing that pops directly out in front of me. That's my baby - s/he likes to hang low.
on Sunday I attended a Blessingway for Joc - I had facilitated her first Blessingway when she was pregnant with Maya, and she coordinated and designed this one (now for baby Beatrice, on her way imminently) in its entirety. It was beautiful, emotional, charged with energy and Divine Mother, permeated with love, and had a true network of strong and loving women in her life. I can't imagine why I was thinking I could not coordinate one for myself (duh). I am so going to do this as well. It's such a powerful way to acknowledge this most significant rite of passage.
on Monday I attended a Homa that was officiated by Amma (Sri Karunamayi). I had never been in Amma's presence before. She gave special blessings to the Homa attendees after the ceremony, which was not scheduled but she does love to bless people. As I approached her, I asked her to bless my baby and she did! She said "Of course! Special blessings to you and your baby" and she touched my belly. I told the baby that s/he has been meeting all the gurus... since last month I got to greet Gurudev and Muniji in NYC and Muniji personally acknowledged me and my baby... an unofficial blessing.... this baby is having a fun spring so far!
I've been sleeping kind of badly because lying down is no longer comfortable for me at this point of pregnancy. I need about 9 pillows to prop myself up on like some sort of recliner. It's about time for me to go finagle the bedding again for bedtime. Charlie is enjoying it though, since we have somehow begun to share a pillow to rest our heads upon. Oh, right... it's because I am now using his pillow! haha.
We're enjoying this time together very much. The intimacy of knowing that we are growing a baby and yet that we still have privacy, quietude, time to ourselves... every moment is incredibly precious and we are in deep appreciation of this time.
xoxo
M.