Year end update - not really, just musings on a Fri afternoon
Sometimes everything seems to take a long time and I should be patient.
I wondered not too long ago if I would ever get a chance to tell her I am proud of her. And I did two days ago. It was one of those introspective late night conversations; with Sunny, Tony and Emily. I am so proud of them. They are so aware of their life struggles. While solutions are not at hand, awareness is the first step. I was surprised with Emily's candidness. I have told her numerous times she can talk to me about anything, just like my kids do. She even gave me a hug on her own. I stayed awake until 3 am going over all the things the kids said.
I used to think how some of the parents are so clueless about their kids and it is sobering to realize that I am one of them. I hope my kids and their friends (and my lj kids) know that my door is always open and my arms are stretched out whenever they need me.
After I talked to Ron and Jackie and realized how happy they were about Emily, I wanted to talk to someone about it. Sunny wasn't home, and Erin texted me back saying she was out with friends - which made me happy :-) I have been worrying about her lately. It was good to know she found friends in her new place.
Strangely, I don't worry about Tara any more either. Her family is accepting and supportive. While it is not a cake walk, she is determined to better her life and be a good mom. I can't wait to see her and her baby Jaxton next month. And Rachel too, if she has time :-)
Finally, I mustered up the courage to talk to a mortgage loan officer. I realized waiting for something is not the same as being inactive. I can still wait for what is broken to become whole, if ever, while I work on the the rest of my life.
Happy new year, kids. *hugs*
I wondered not too long ago if I would ever get a chance to tell her I am proud of her. And I did two days ago. It was one of those introspective late night conversations; with Sunny, Tony and Emily. I am so proud of them. They are so aware of their life struggles. While solutions are not at hand, awareness is the first step. I was surprised with Emily's candidness. I have told her numerous times she can talk to me about anything, just like my kids do. She even gave me a hug on her own. I stayed awake until 3 am going over all the things the kids said.
I used to think how some of the parents are so clueless about their kids and it is sobering to realize that I am one of them. I hope my kids and their friends (and my lj kids) know that my door is always open and my arms are stretched out whenever they need me.
After I talked to Ron and Jackie and realized how happy they were about Emily, I wanted to talk to someone about it. Sunny wasn't home, and Erin texted me back saying she was out with friends - which made me happy :-) I have been worrying about her lately. It was good to know she found friends in her new place.
Strangely, I don't worry about Tara any more either. Her family is accepting and supportive. While it is not a cake walk, she is determined to better her life and be a good mom. I can't wait to see her and her baby Jaxton next month. And Rachel too, if she has time :-)
Finally, I mustered up the courage to talk to a mortgage loan officer. I realized waiting for something is not the same as being inactive. I can still wait for what is broken to become whole, if ever, while I work on the the rest of my life.
Happy new year, kids. *hugs*