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I said a prayer to call upon God's favor and protection. I asked God a question that's been niggling in the back of my heart and mind after that...who did he put me down here for? I'm not down here for myself exclusively...
THe answer scared the stuffing out of me. I had a dream that night and who but the one guy who can't get it right appeared. He was looking at me with a crazy person's grin and he held out his hand. I didn't take it but asked him what his purpose was. "it's a secret" like always he would say this then laugh. I hit him this time then walked away. As he tried to follow me he got caught up in something...like waves and colors.
The rest of the night I had exausting sleep about the guy,his habits,lack of a schedule, lack of listening skills and quick temper. It made me not want to be near him in all honesty...lack of listening skills was enough to make me not want to. I didn't see his positive traits. Just the negative ones. Why would God do that to me? Why would he stick me with a douche bag like that? I basically told God he could do better...D: I know not a good idea to say that to God. After that the guy I hit came back and said he wanted me to just accept him as he was. I don't know if I can just DO that...
THe answer scared the stuffing out of me. I had a dream that night and who but the one guy who can't get it right appeared. He was looking at me with a crazy person's grin and he held out his hand. I didn't take it but asked him what his purpose was. "it's a secret" like always he would say this then laugh. I hit him this time then walked away. As he tried to follow me he got caught up in something...like waves and colors.
The rest of the night I had exausting sleep about the guy,his habits,lack of a schedule, lack of listening skills and quick temper. It made me not want to be near him in all honesty...lack of listening skills was enough to make me not want to. I didn't see his positive traits. Just the negative ones. Why would God do that to me? Why would he stick me with a douche bag like that? I basically told God he could do better...D: I know not a good idea to say that to God. After that the guy I hit came back and said he wanted me to just accept him as he was. I don't know if I can just DO that...