Too much complaining.
I feel as though I am swimming in a sea of negativity. It is a hard, tedious, frustrating quarter academically. I don't know if I will be able to get the classes I literally need for next quarter. Our internet has been down for the most part (I'm "borrowing" from an unsecured neighbor network) for at least the last week, and my roommate Ryan, who deals with it, is being miserable about it. We are all frustrated, but he is an asshole to the technicians, and to Mandi and I anytime something about it comes up. He is condescending and elitist and spiteful when he gets frustrated, irritated, or angry. This is particularly miserable because I have been making a concerted effort to be pleasant to people right now, when every day I am feeling like total shit.
Over the weekend, I took valuable time out of doing homework/internship/etc to go skiing with my dad. I spent three hours of the first day by myself in the lodge with absolutely no diversions, because my ankle that has always been weaker would literally not do what I was telling it, and I couldn't ski like that. Luckily today it was sore, but behaving enough to ski. This feels like just another check on the list of physical problems I deal with. I'm hoping that if I talk to a physical therapist and/or doctor, they can tell my exercises to do for it. I'll add those to my daily routine of diabetes care, lactose intolerance, and persistent dry eyes. At least cleaning and soaking my piercing twice a day is by choice.
I also miss Mike horribly. The 17th is a very long time off...and with the internet...unpredictable....I've been unable to even send an E-mail tonight. Tonight I also discovered that I left my glasses with Dad, and then upon going to get tea, found mountains of dishes in sink, dish rack, and dishwasher, and when I went to fill the tea kettle in the over-crowded sink, the spout cover caught on something and broke off.
Back to studying. The WiFi at the hotel over the weekend worked until I tried to study, and then it failed. I rate everything a failure right now. This was terribly whiny, and I'm sorry for that....but I had to write it out. Maybe next time I'll write something positive. That's the goal.
Over the weekend, I took valuable time out of doing homework/internship/etc to go skiing with my dad. I spent three hours of the first day by myself in the lodge with absolutely no diversions, because my ankle that has always been weaker would literally not do what I was telling it, and I couldn't ski like that. Luckily today it was sore, but behaving enough to ski. This feels like just another check on the list of physical problems I deal with. I'm hoping that if I talk to a physical therapist and/or doctor, they can tell my exercises to do for it. I'll add those to my daily routine of diabetes care, lactose intolerance, and persistent dry eyes. At least cleaning and soaking my piercing twice a day is by choice.
I also miss Mike horribly. The 17th is a very long time off...and with the internet...unpredictable....I've been unable to even send an E-mail tonight. Tonight I also discovered that I left my glasses with Dad, and then upon going to get tea, found mountains of dishes in sink, dish rack, and dishwasher, and when I went to fill the tea kettle in the over-crowded sink, the spout cover caught on something and broke off.
Back to studying. The WiFi at the hotel over the weekend worked until I tried to study, and then it failed. I rate everything a failure right now. This was terribly whiny, and I'm sorry for that....but I had to write it out. Maybe next time I'll write something positive. That's the goal.