I'm feelin' kind strange cause of all the things you say
I'm sitting here thinking about how I think too much and do too little. Which in itself proves the point...Erm.. Damn. I don't know why its so hard to just do things. Like, honestly, during work and when I'm at home I just make these huge lists of all the things I need and want to do. And each and every day I write down the same crap. I've been working a lot the past three weeks, but jesus, it shouldn't limit me this much. It's just me who limits it. I keep slipping into these patterns of just doing nothing, but still always being occupied with something. Fucker.
And I am leaving August 22nd. Which means that I have to have my house clean of all my things, all my stuff packed up and all that jazz. And all my stuff is in a mess somewhere. Goddamnit, you know? I don't even know where to begin to start figuring out how I'm packing everything. I *like* making lists, but I am dreading making this college list thing cause it's going to be so ginormous.
Also, I want a beach day, and a night out to eat with Nicole, Ricky and Max, and movie nights (especially cartoons on crack night!), but everyone's schedules are conflicting with eachother, bleh. Next week I'll take Wednesday off, so I'll be free Tuesday-Friday.
I'm trying my best not to think how I would have liked to enjoy this summer differently, and how I wasted most of it. Because I did enjoy it, a lot. I loved the weeks I'd just sit in Nicky's basement and watch her and Ricky play zombie killing games, and I liked going out at night with Emma. But there are people I didn't get to see, which makes me sad. And I feel like I didn't do enough with anyone, and now I'm leaving. And I am *SO* happy to be leaving for college, and I'm not really worried about making new friends or anything like that. I just wish that I would go to college missing everyone to pieces instead of feeling like I've already lost them before I even left.
And I am leaving August 22nd. Which means that I have to have my house clean of all my things, all my stuff packed up and all that jazz. And all my stuff is in a mess somewhere. Goddamnit, you know? I don't even know where to begin to start figuring out how I'm packing everything. I *like* making lists, but I am dreading making this college list thing cause it's going to be so ginormous.
Also, I want a beach day, and a night out to eat with Nicole, Ricky and Max, and movie nights (especially cartoons on crack night!), but everyone's schedules are conflicting with eachother, bleh. Next week I'll take Wednesday off, so I'll be free Tuesday-Friday.
I'm trying my best not to think how I would have liked to enjoy this summer differently, and how I wasted most of it. Because I did enjoy it, a lot. I loved the weeks I'd just sit in Nicky's basement and watch her and Ricky play zombie killing games, and I liked going out at night with Emma. But there are people I didn't get to see, which makes me sad. And I feel like I didn't do enough with anyone, and now I'm leaving. And I am *SO* happy to be leaving for college, and I'm not really worried about making new friends or anything like that. I just wish that I would go to college missing everyone to pieces instead of feeling like I've already lost them before I even left.