Hmmm... not looking good *UPDATE* Again!
Ugh. So this is the second break up between Ruby and I. This time it looks like it will be for longer.
It is actually pretty much the same as the first break up. Hmmm....
It was a little easier this time because we had actually gone over the whole thing already. It was just happening again.
Its hard. I want to see her still, but I know that if I do I will secretly hope that things will work out again. Or she will change her mind somehow. I don't want to try and avoid her, though. Besides, we both go to GVSU, so it will be inevitable to bump into each other. I don't even know if I could be 'just friends'. Maybe...
Its hard to go for so long in a relationship not suspecting anything was wrong, and then finding that its over. I guess that is where people start putting their guards up, against that kind of hope. Agh. It was so easy to not have a guard up, though. Nothing to worry about, then.
Hmm. So we haven't traded back all of our little things yet. And all those little objects kind of hold on to the hope of keeping it together. Last time she broke it off, it only lasted 2 days. Now its day 4...
I was thinking of Anne's relationship with Brian, and how Anne seems to just turn all her feelings of liking someone into hate right after the break up. Maybe its easier that way. Keep the same level of emotion, but just in the opposite form. Whereas I have to try and just suppress it, or lower it.
Well, its going to be a different summer this year. Its like I lost my favorite hobby. I guess that gap will be filled with something. Or someone? Ugh, and it can't even be filled with soccer/capture-the-flag! At least not until September.
Well, thats it for now.
It is actually pretty much the same as the first break up. Hmmm....
It was a little easier this time because we had actually gone over the whole thing already. It was just happening again.
Its hard. I want to see her still, but I know that if I do I will secretly hope that things will work out again. Or she will change her mind somehow. I don't want to try and avoid her, though. Besides, we both go to GVSU, so it will be inevitable to bump into each other. I don't even know if I could be 'just friends'. Maybe...
Its hard to go for so long in a relationship not suspecting anything was wrong, and then finding that its over. I guess that is where people start putting their guards up, against that kind of hope. Agh. It was so easy to not have a guard up, though. Nothing to worry about, then.
Hmm. So we haven't traded back all of our little things yet. And all those little objects kind of hold on to the hope of keeping it together. Last time she broke it off, it only lasted 2 days. Now its day 4...
I was thinking of Anne's relationship with Brian, and how Anne seems to just turn all her feelings of liking someone into hate right after the break up. Maybe its easier that way. Keep the same level of emotion, but just in the opposite form. Whereas I have to try and just suppress it, or lower it.
Well, its going to be a different summer this year. Its like I lost my favorite hobby. I guess that gap will be filled with something. Or someone? Ugh, and it can't even be filled with soccer/capture-the-flag! At least not until September.
Well, thats it for now.