well i have been very stressed lately but now i decided top just have fun....
well it was mostly becuz of last night.
heres how it went down ... i want to go to prom with eddie if that wasnt already completely obvious lol.. and so jess was talking to me abouit a bunch of stuff about prom and i wasnt getting it then she said she got a date and i was like oooo i was really happy for her but yes i still didnt have a date and well i still dont...so i was talking to jenn and i asked her to ask him if he had a date cuz i dont like to make a fool out of myself..and she said he said no then she goes do you want me to ask for you and seeing that i was so nervous i couldnt type i said okay...well she asked and he said that she was like the fifth person that said that to him and i got very pissed offf to no extent cuz just to think some one would go behind my back and do that by like asking him for me and not telling me gets me mad cuz i felt bad for him... so then she siad he said he was in the process of asking someone already which i knew was the case anyways cuz cmon why the fuck would he want to go with me....but anyways back to the story so then i started talking to him and i said i was so sorry for all of that shit that happened now this is after i already bawled my eyes out on the phone to jenn.. so then we were talking and i asked who siad it and he said it was mainly jess and i was like o no she prolly didnt mean it like that but that was how he took it so then i felt bad again and i will admit it was akward for about 5 minutes then it was normal again so i am happy....and that was that i guess
so yes i still dont have a date but i know it is gonna stay like that so i am not going to stress about it, i mean hello there are kids starving in other countries and gay people not being able to get married and people dying in iraq still and who am i to stress about prom....
i think going with friends is fun to but senior prom i know is a different story cuz no one goes to that without a date unless well ... i dont know lol
but right now i am very happy becuz nothing is going to stress me out ....
o yea today is the beginning of lent and like every year i tell myself i will give somethign up and i never do so this year no sweets.....wow that will be hard ...
i am happy now truly happy becuz my new attitude twoard prom is fuck going with guys well unless i get a date but i dont think that is happening ..... o well fuck it ....i never have a hard time enjoying myself and having a blast so i am planning on it.......