THiS iS THE END OF THE GREATEST TiiME OF MY LiiFE *
hellooo. lets see yesterday was the worst day everrrr. i fought with just about everyone work sucked and instead of partying with the girls i sat home fought some more and cried myself to sleep.
today was a little better.
i woke up still in a bad mood.. but i fixed my phone that i broke last night.. then i made plans and chilled while stupid candice took forever to get ready. i watched that thing you do =) so finally candice called and we went to superior then her daddy drove us to chrissys. we went swimming and then got ready and then we got a ride to the shoemaker post and waited for the bus for like a 1/2 hour but it didnt come so we walked to the bus stop at candices and i tanned! lol so finally the bus came and we went to the mall. then we took th ebus home and angelo and eric were on the bus! =) i missed angeloo!! so then me and candice walked chrissy a lil bit cuz she was going to dannys and me and candice walked to the staffords and chilled with chris lol then my mommy came to pick me up and we chilled for a while and now iam home. depressed. as usual.
everything is awful. not only did i lose my boyfriend but i think i just lost my best friend too.
im scared that well still be awkward when he leaves.
im scared that hell leave mad at me and we wont keep in touch as much as id like.
im scared that ill never find anything like this ever again.
hes so mean to me sometimes and i just let him treat me that way. i cant help it. id rather have him around being mean than not around at all.
maybe he is just as scared as i am.
maybe he doesnt know what to do.
or maybe.. he just doesnt love me anymore..
and really doesnt care that im not gunna see him anymore..
maybe it was all a huge mistake. that kills me more than anything. knowing that if we had never gotten together.. wed still be best friends.. and id still mean as much to him as he means to me now.
today was a little better.
i woke up still in a bad mood.. but i fixed my phone that i broke last night.. then i made plans and chilled while stupid candice took forever to get ready. i watched that thing you do =) so finally candice called and we went to superior then her daddy drove us to chrissys. we went swimming and then got ready and then we got a ride to the shoemaker post and waited for the bus for like a 1/2 hour but it didnt come so we walked to the bus stop at candices and i tanned! lol so finally the bus came and we went to the mall. then we took th ebus home and angelo and eric were on the bus! =) i missed angeloo!! so then me and candice walked chrissy a lil bit cuz she was going to dannys and me and candice walked to the staffords and chilled with chris lol then my mommy came to pick me up and we chilled for a while and now iam home. depressed. as usual.
everything is awful. not only did i lose my boyfriend but i think i just lost my best friend too.
im scared that well still be awkward when he leaves.
im scared that hell leave mad at me and we wont keep in touch as much as id like.
im scared that ill never find anything like this ever again.
hes so mean to me sometimes and i just let him treat me that way. i cant help it. id rather have him around being mean than not around at all.
maybe he is just as scared as i am.
maybe he doesnt know what to do.
or maybe.. he just doesnt love me anymore..
and really doesnt care that im not gunna see him anymore..
maybe it was all a huge mistake. that kills me more than anything. knowing that if we had never gotten together.. wed still be best friends.. and id still mean as much to him as he means to me now.