drinking since 4:00
I almost ended things with Mitchell last night.
It would have been one of the worst days of my life.
I even packed the majority of my things from his room-
mind you I basically live at his house.
I was so scared. I couldn't stop crying.
I still haven't put my ring back on-
I almost don't feel deserving anymore.
I couldn't get myself to leave though,
which I'm thankful for now-
I'm not really sure what I would have done.
Truthfully, I probably would have gone home.
Like, Onsted, home.
I would have skipped my exam tomorrow,
and probably withdrawn from Ferris.
If I left Mitchell J.,
I'd be leaving all of my friends too.
All over nothing.
I love him too much,
and contrary to how others feel:
HE'S MINE!
Everything is bothering me lately,
especially a variety of topics involving Onsted.
Basically, I don't want to be seen by anybody other than my family.
I almost wish I was more welcome in the K-Zoo.
Luckily Ali should be around, if Mitchell's dad gets to be too difficult to handle.
Some more studying to do, I suppose.
I just can't wait to be finished with this semester-
I am so overwhelmed.
Between exams, emotional issues, and work...
...give me another beer.
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download "No. 5"- Hollywood Undead
P.S. Brian Mulligan, get in touch with my mom about dinner. Mitchell and I will be at my house probably next Monday. Dinner in Ann Arbor would be a good time. I <3 family!
It would have been one of the worst days of my life.
I even packed the majority of my things from his room-
mind you I basically live at his house.
I was so scared. I couldn't stop crying.
I still haven't put my ring back on-
I almost don't feel deserving anymore.
I couldn't get myself to leave though,
which I'm thankful for now-
I'm not really sure what I would have done.
Truthfully, I probably would have gone home.
Like, Onsted, home.
I would have skipped my exam tomorrow,
and probably withdrawn from Ferris.
If I left Mitchell J.,
I'd be leaving all of my friends too.
All over nothing.
I love him too much,
and contrary to how others feel:
HE'S MINE!
Everything is bothering me lately,
especially a variety of topics involving Onsted.
Basically, I don't want to be seen by anybody other than my family.
I almost wish I was more welcome in the K-Zoo.
Luckily Ali should be around, if Mitchell's dad gets to be too difficult to handle.
Some more studying to do, I suppose.
I just can't wait to be finished with this semester-
I am so overwhelmed.
Between exams, emotional issues, and work...
...give me another beer.
--
download "No. 5"- Hollywood Undead
P.S. Brian Mulligan, get in touch with my mom about dinner. Mitchell and I will be at my house probably next Monday. Dinner in Ann Arbor would be a good time. I <3 family!