...biology: you are a square. my brain is a circle. can't you see this just won't work?....
i wouldn't say that i'm in over my head.. but my brain definitely isn't in a science mode of thinking.. and since that one class is a 4 credit class, and we meet 4 times a week.. i had better get my brain up and running..
and running quick.
i'm in environmental biology. sooo by no means overly scientific or crazy. i don't have to worry about chemical reactions, blowing things up, or what happens if i push a box up a fulcrum plane (... okay.. so i know that's something - but not really sure what.. go ahead and make fun of me. i'm laughing at myself for what my brain has been regurgitating all day!)
we met today.. for our 'lab' .. also not to bad. no disecting poor unsuspecting animals, or whatever. we get to go on field trips and what not. but my brain just isn't a science brain. so i have a feeling i'll be doing lots of extra work to make up for it.. and honestly - i don't know if i'm going to have the time for all that extra effort.
bah.
i start my other 2 classes tomorrow. yup. that's right. i only have 3 'real' classes. Environmental Biology, Intro to Ethnomusicology and African Music in the Americas. not to shabby. I know that Ethno requires a lot of outside the class work, and the African class is a new one this year - so i have no idea what to expect.
although - i have the same teacher for those two classes, and in the last class i had with her i definitely had a 105% going into the final. she likes me - so at least i don't have to worry about that right?
i have my first lesson with judy on thursday... i'm kind of apprehensive as to how it'll go. my hand is so subpar right now it irritates the living daylights out of me. i'm really thinking that it was all in vain.. so much for the life of a performer... it's kinda hard to just kick the dream i've had for so long away.. but i think i have to. it's just not a plausible reality anymore.
thank you KFAC.. you honestly ruined my life. wee.
ANYWAYS.. it's so hard to believe that this is the last time (as of now..) that i'll ever be starting school. i got up this morning and nothing was really that different.. i still didn't want to be up, i procrastinated as long as possible, and whatnot. i did all the busy work on campus.. dealt with the normal BS and did my thing. Answered questions and fielded various responses on my current hair color and came home to nap after all was said and done.
i really don't think i'm going to want this year to end. This is definite.
what lies beyond this.
isn't.
and i hate that.
i really really do.
regardless. i have to go mold my brain around some lengthy scientifc chapter full of mumblejumble and try to understand it by friday. oi.
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and running quick.
i'm in environmental biology. sooo by no means overly scientific or crazy. i don't have to worry about chemical reactions, blowing things up, or what happens if i push a box up a fulcrum plane (... okay.. so i know that's something - but not really sure what.. go ahead and make fun of me. i'm laughing at myself for what my brain has been regurgitating all day!)
we met today.. for our 'lab' .. also not to bad. no disecting poor unsuspecting animals, or whatever. we get to go on field trips and what not. but my brain just isn't a science brain. so i have a feeling i'll be doing lots of extra work to make up for it.. and honestly - i don't know if i'm going to have the time for all that extra effort.
bah.
i start my other 2 classes tomorrow. yup. that's right. i only have 3 'real' classes. Environmental Biology, Intro to Ethnomusicology and African Music in the Americas. not to shabby. I know that Ethno requires a lot of outside the class work, and the African class is a new one this year - so i have no idea what to expect.
although - i have the same teacher for those two classes, and in the last class i had with her i definitely had a 105% going into the final. she likes me - so at least i don't have to worry about that right?
i have my first lesson with judy on thursday... i'm kind of apprehensive as to how it'll go. my hand is so subpar right now it irritates the living daylights out of me. i'm really thinking that it was all in vain.. so much for the life of a performer... it's kinda hard to just kick the dream i've had for so long away.. but i think i have to. it's just not a plausible reality anymore.
thank you KFAC.. you honestly ruined my life. wee.
ANYWAYS.. it's so hard to believe that this is the last time (as of now..) that i'll ever be starting school. i got up this morning and nothing was really that different.. i still didn't want to be up, i procrastinated as long as possible, and whatnot. i did all the busy work on campus.. dealt with the normal BS and did my thing. Answered questions and fielded various responses on my current hair color and came home to nap after all was said and done.
i really don't think i'm going to want this year to end. This is definite.
what lies beyond this.
isn't.
and i hate that.
i really really do.
regardless. i have to go mold my brain around some lengthy scientifc chapter full of mumblejumble and try to understand it by friday. oi.
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