soul.
sunday night. sitting here alone. i just want to be at home and be in your arms and just lay there. but i hate this. i can't stand being without you but im afraid that what we have is too delicate and something will happen to it but it wont because WE work at it and WE have control and its not just some faithful hopefull destiny thing. we control us. we love eachother BUT it is not the only thing that matters. you are my best friend. you are my rock and the person who tests me the most. you arent afraid to hurt my feelings, but you love everything about me as i do for you. you see everything about me, like no one has. and for that i am grateful. (midnight ramblings about stephan so shhhhhhhh)
uhhh i hate homework. on another note, this weekend i worked everyday. so it sucked but ya know its life.
this weekend me and stephan are going to house sit for dr davis. hell ya i get to play house haha
anywho i am going to make one last comment about someone.
*** friends? no. far from it. just this nice little cover up we keep telling ourselves it will get better. yet you dont talk to me. you complain we dont talk yet... whenever i have the chance you are too busy. im sad and angry but at the same time i understand. you've changed alot. you aren't the same person i knew before and i dont know if this new person you are, i dont know if i can be friends with you. ive changed too but i cant tell you all of this because you wont hear it. so this is it. im tired of it and its not going to change. ive tried but im giving up.***
goodnight.