why should i care

[ooo1sarah1ooo]

got in a big dumb fight with chad today. i hate myself for yelling at him, but i would hate myself even more if i just kept it all in. now, he won't answer his phone and im getting sad. i don't want to fight with him, and im trying so hard not to. i don't want things to go back, and that is what it seems like they're doing. who knows what'll happen. i hope we dont break up, i don't think the fight was that serious but i don't think i've ever heard him yell at me like that. sigh. what to do. what to do. highschool is really starting to get old.

anyway. yesterday i went over puff's after school and then we went to leominster to get our used tickets and then to michaela's volleyball game and then i drove out to natick to get michaela homecoming stuff. we made it home and then chad came and picked me up at puff's. we went back to his house and watched the game. i had fun. i wish i could be doing the same thing tongiht. but no. siiigh.

i can't stand being ignored. its breaking my heart.