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Bobby and i broke up tonight. im thoroughly depressed but what can you do. i honestly love him and it was the hardest thing i had to sit through. its soo sad though bc i dont want it to be over... who knows... maybe one day we'll meet again. being his friend is going to be so hard bc im going to want to snuggle with him and kiss him and hug him and be with him. but i cant. other girls can... so go ahead girls... its my worst nightmare come true. im sad. really really sad. i wanted so bad to hug him and he hugged me. i hgot to my room and started packing up sooo much.... even pookie bear... we talked about me giving her a head stone the day we broke up. they arent thrown away or anything... just put away. my brother is sad... he really has hope for mine and bobbys future... he loves bobby... hes like their older brother. dottie will be a little droopy but she'll b ok. mom wants me to have fun bc shes been in my shoes. dads glad he did it this way but hes still sad for me... im his princess and he hates seeing me cry bc it makes him cry. ill be ok eventually....dont know how long it willtake this time... prolly 2 more years. its just hard ya know?... i had to be strong when he told me bc i knew it was coming... he started crying and i fell like the berlin wall. who knows... maybe in the future if me and bobby decide to try third times a charm...maybe we will be together. right now, hes right. we need to have fun whether we are with each other or not. He has fun at uncc... ill have fun at app. but seriously though... he gave up the best thing he has ever had. im a good girl... or at least i like to think so... well... i have my whole life ahead of me... and i guess its gotta be gin somewhere... i just wish that being friends with someone you're in love with actually worked.
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