drained
im so worn out.
i just finished stephs letter. tre sad. i cried... a lot. just have mays left to do.
on a lighter note.
i got to hang out with bobby tonight. and he went through his clothes to see what he needs to go shopping for. grubbed with his family...corn beef was tre yummy.... thanks momma ruthenberg.
anywho~> he cleaned out his drawer and i guess it really hit me... bobby is loved by lots of girls... rightfully so. and i laid there for a little bit just staring at the ceiling. thinking about it. just pondering about these girls. all of these ex's or crushes. kinda jealous that he still had letters the wrote him and pictures they gave him. just thinking... i wonder if he thinks about them. just thinkning. starin out his skylight. and then it hit me. he is with me. they really dont matter to me. all together the yare probably jealous of what i have. i love bobby and he loves me. So out of town girls....church girls... crazy old high school girls dont really matter.
kinda funny how he asked me if i just sat and thought about stuff. i do. when boys are like that you just want to crawl in thier minds and see what they are thinkin.
we talked about our break up. made me feel better. weird i know. but it did. i could fall asleep with him. i can just lay there with him forever and be fine with it.
xodanixo
i just finished stephs letter. tre sad. i cried... a lot. just have mays left to do.
on a lighter note.
i got to hang out with bobby tonight. and he went through his clothes to see what he needs to go shopping for. grubbed with his family...corn beef was tre yummy.... thanks momma ruthenberg.
anywho~> he cleaned out his drawer and i guess it really hit me... bobby is loved by lots of girls... rightfully so. and i laid there for a little bit just staring at the ceiling. thinking about it. just pondering about these girls. all of these ex's or crushes. kinda jealous that he still had letters the wrote him and pictures they gave him. just thinking... i wonder if he thinks about them. just thinkning. starin out his skylight. and then it hit me. he is with me. they really dont matter to me. all together the yare probably jealous of what i have. i love bobby and he loves me. So out of town girls....church girls... crazy old high school girls dont really matter.
kinda funny how he asked me if i just sat and thought about stuff. i do. when boys are like that you just want to crawl in thier minds and see what they are thinkin.
we talked about our break up. made me feel better. weird i know. but it did. i could fall asleep with him. i can just lay there with him forever and be fine with it.
xodanixo