Xmas Blues
Dude, christmas now sucks.
I have a feeling this will be the worst christmas ever.
Not cause' of the stuff I might be getting. I don't give a flying f**k about that.
I would seriously give it all away to just be freaking happy right now.
It sucks. Alot
I really am not sure why I am so unhappy. I know one reason. But I won't share that right now, because if I did. It would make someone else very sad.
I don't want to go back to school. Not because of the teachers or school work. It's because of the people I am forced to be around. I like all of them. But a few of my best friend and I are, drifting apart.
I don't want to leave eighth grade. I have to leave all these teachers who are definatly the best teachers I have ever had and all the friends that are decent to me, or most of them, are leaving.
I wish I wasn't afraid of liking people. I don't really know why I am either. But whenever I try and get close to someone. I push myself away. I think one of my friends is getting into drugs too. A good friend, one I have known since I moved here. He's wayyyy different. I think his friend stole 30 bucks from me yesterday, too. But whatever, if he needs the money he can take it.
There is one part of me that wants to stay in thsi town.
The other part of me wants to leave and go to miami, were my family had the choice to go. Why we stayed in this hell hole. I don't know but it's catching up to me.
I want to leave. It seems like people think I am such an evil person. It sucks cause I'm not. If I am mean to you, you were mean to me first.
I can't even go outside cause when I went outside I accedently popped my wrist out of socket again. .I think a bunch of tendons are torn too. But I have already maxed out our budget at this time of year. With my wrist and christmas. There is no way I can go to the docter now.
i am pretty sure I only have 4 or so actual friends. Who don't do crap to me. Who are nice to me and talk to me in person alot. Who are friendly.
Maybe this whole thing is my fault. I am sure a bunch of people think it is. Or make something in this blog something big. But whatever.
Christmas Eve and I feel worse than I have in months. Wonderful
nash
I have a feeling this will be the worst christmas ever.
Not cause' of the stuff I might be getting. I don't give a flying f**k about that.
I would seriously give it all away to just be freaking happy right now.
It sucks. Alot
I really am not sure why I am so unhappy. I know one reason. But I won't share that right now, because if I did. It would make someone else very sad.
I don't want to go back to school. Not because of the teachers or school work. It's because of the people I am forced to be around. I like all of them. But a few of my best friend and I are, drifting apart.
I don't want to leave eighth grade. I have to leave all these teachers who are definatly the best teachers I have ever had and all the friends that are decent to me, or most of them, are leaving.
I wish I wasn't afraid of liking people. I don't really know why I am either. But whenever I try and get close to someone. I push myself away. I think one of my friends is getting into drugs too. A good friend, one I have known since I moved here. He's wayyyy different. I think his friend stole 30 bucks from me yesterday, too. But whatever, if he needs the money he can take it.
There is one part of me that wants to stay in thsi town.
The other part of me wants to leave and go to miami, were my family had the choice to go. Why we stayed in this hell hole. I don't know but it's catching up to me.
I want to leave. It seems like people think I am such an evil person. It sucks cause I'm not. If I am mean to you, you were mean to me first.
I can't even go outside cause when I went outside I accedently popped my wrist out of socket again. .I think a bunch of tendons are torn too. But I have already maxed out our budget at this time of year. With my wrist and christmas. There is no way I can go to the docter now.
i am pretty sure I only have 4 or so actual friends. Who don't do crap to me. Who are nice to me and talk to me in person alot. Who are friendly.
Maybe this whole thing is my fault. I am sure a bunch of people think it is. Or make something in this blog something big. But whatever.
Christmas Eve and I feel worse than I have in months. Wonderful
nash