falling

Feb 06, 2004 23:27

Quietly singing on my bed, feeling your warmth wrapping me tight and enveloping me in affection. I stole your ring and shifted into comfort.

I fell for you. Faster than I thought possible. Deep breaths of relaxation, hearing your voice softly seduce me. Words escape me, and a soft smile crease my lips.

You hold my hand, intertwining our fingers and carressing my palms in circles. Your hand squeezes mine and you release everything in a single breath. I hold unto your arm, applying pressure.

I've seen your scars... Scars of the heart and scars upon your arms. I would kiss them away if I could, but I cannot. I can simply stroke them, thinking of days relaxing with you.
Thinking of days of solitude and companionship. I wouldn't sell you for the world... You're my little secret. A secret I want to shout from the mountains and drown in the sea.

You said I am an ocean. A deeper meaning beneath those crashing waves. A beautiful person and an affectionate girl. I smile, I hold your hand and squeeze. Entertwining our fingers and gazing at your ring.

The ring is yours, the body anothers, but the heart... The heart belongs solely to me. My little affair. My love, my joy... my bounce.

I snuggle up in your arms, feeling comfortable with who I am. Loving myself and loving you more. Only feeling the content of being alongside you. Feeling your breath escape you and your laugh vibrate.

You wonder why I care about your scars, you wonder why I care about your feelings and your emotions... I never wonder. You mean something to me. Your happiness means something to me. I want you to be happy. To smile and laugh, to feel my warmth and reflect it back. To open entirely, to be accepted, to be loved and to love. I cannot even begin to share my appreciation.

You amaze me. With every breath, every word and every touch... I hold you close, and never intend on letting go.
Sitting across me in a booth, I just want to touch you, hold you, kiss you. But I'm shy... I'm passionate, but direct affection was never something I learned. I wish I could give you that.

I wish I could control my mind. I wish I could stop playing this CD. I wish I could stop listening to these songs. Touching your ring, feeling your bracelet... I wish this dizziness didn't send me into a whirlpool everytime I'm seperated from you. I wish I could stop myself from falling.

Falling from this cliff, hanging on and slowly slipping... Waving and flapping my arms in some attempt of slowing myself down. But I cannot... I cannot crumble my heart and I cannot break yours. I cannot pretend these feelings are untrue and I cannot pretend that you do no exist. You do exist. And I love you.
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