The Divine Spine.
This is my religion. This is what I believe in. My spine is where my spinal chord is positioned and suspended by bone, cartilage, fluids, and other connective tissues. My central nervous system would not function properly if my spinal chord was damaged from damage done to all the little things that make up it's protection.
I have almost experienced the same thing I experienced during a previous CST session. That Kundalini experience I had? Yeah, it was almost that, but not quite. There's obstruction in my path. And when I talk about my path, I talk about my physical path through my spinal chord, my mental path into solving these problems for good and my energetic path which is where I gain strength for all of this healing and searching for ascension to a higher plane of existence. I am focusing more and more on what is going on in my CNS. Where are the restrictions in my spinal column and cranium and how can I remove those things from my body.
A few days ago I was having thoughts about Meth again. Picture me rolling my eyes at myself at this point in the conversation. I know I'm not over this, and I don't fool myself in thinking that I am far from over this. I have NO CLUE what might trigger me to act on thoughts inspired by external forces beyond my control. I also have no clue what my own thoughts about meth will do to me. THe thought came up and all manner of ideas ensued: Can I evn get any? When I get it, when do I make this manifest? I want to be smarter about how I use it. I want this kind of scenario to happen.
And then my brain calms down and I realize that I'm not focused on my spine. What's goin on that is making me want to do this again? Probably the happiness of resolving one more of the traumas in my spine. It's a nice feeling when things don't hurt and your brain just flies off into the first thought that comes up, which for me is that thought. I"m working on all of this, so keep up and see where the journey takes me.
Somewhere in my brain is the thought that I can enjoy doing chrystal meth. I guess that's the addictive part of things. Of course roller coasters, food, or any other activity you engage in where there is thrill involved you have the possibility for hurting yourself. People that drive fast...yeah, it's thrilling, but you could DIE! We still do it. It's something about the thrill and everything thrilling has associations in my brain with meth now. :) You brain associates the weirdest things.
So now I focus on getting healthy and focus internally more and more. I feel myself almost wanting to become a monk of some kind in my own body.
I have almost experienced the same thing I experienced during a previous CST session. That Kundalini experience I had? Yeah, it was almost that, but not quite. There's obstruction in my path. And when I talk about my path, I talk about my physical path through my spinal chord, my mental path into solving these problems for good and my energetic path which is where I gain strength for all of this healing and searching for ascension to a higher plane of existence. I am focusing more and more on what is going on in my CNS. Where are the restrictions in my spinal column and cranium and how can I remove those things from my body.
A few days ago I was having thoughts about Meth again. Picture me rolling my eyes at myself at this point in the conversation. I know I'm not over this, and I don't fool myself in thinking that I am far from over this. I have NO CLUE what might trigger me to act on thoughts inspired by external forces beyond my control. I also have no clue what my own thoughts about meth will do to me. THe thought came up and all manner of ideas ensued: Can I evn get any? When I get it, when do I make this manifest? I want to be smarter about how I use it. I want this kind of scenario to happen.
And then my brain calms down and I realize that I'm not focused on my spine. What's goin on that is making me want to do this again? Probably the happiness of resolving one more of the traumas in my spine. It's a nice feeling when things don't hurt and your brain just flies off into the first thought that comes up, which for me is that thought. I"m working on all of this, so keep up and see where the journey takes me.
Somewhere in my brain is the thought that I can enjoy doing chrystal meth. I guess that's the addictive part of things. Of course roller coasters, food, or any other activity you engage in where there is thrill involved you have the possibility for hurting yourself. People that drive fast...yeah, it's thrilling, but you could DIE! We still do it. It's something about the thrill and everything thrilling has associations in my brain with meth now. :) You brain associates the weirdest things.
So now I focus on getting healthy and focus internally more and more. I feel myself almost wanting to become a monk of some kind in my own body.