kinda nervous

[oolilxmissyoo]

so much crap has happend within the course of a day. grandmas really gone now. i mean she was gone but her bodys gone as well. im scared to see how greedy the family will ecome. my dad told me yesterday i am now the most precious thing in his life. not that i wasnt before but i guess im all that he has now. i kinda stayed in and hung out with my dad. went to bed hella early. i figured if i went to sleep maybe everything will just go away for a lil bit.nope i had awful dreams. my dad thinks that my grandmas spirit or whatever is in the house. i dont feel it but im just agreeing with him at the moment. ahh

i start my internship today kinda nervous cuz i dont know what to expect. but i look hella fab in my scrubs lol. omg i went everywhere looking for crocs yesterday i had to get a size bigger cuz thats all they had. ahhh there kinda big but shit what u gonna do. there still kinda comfy i will let you know when i get off my shift today.
i really dont want to do this i just wanna get a job and get paid for doing this shit.

ok so im off to pretend to care. i have a feeling im gonna be doing shit work today. ahh