Is anyone out there?
You know it has definitly been a good while since I have updated this thing...and as I look back I really miss the old days. It kills me. Like I had so many good times, I was careless, I was free and I took it all for granted. Im now 21. I have no idea where im going or what Im doing with my life. I jumped on the scale today, and I hated the
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every women dose hun. it sux that you are hurtin. in away i dont think mike makein jokes bout your weght helps you or even makes you happy.dont wrry i like him i kno he loves u and dosnt mean it. but its more like putting you down enstead of him pulling u up. if some 1 made jokes bout my weght i would feel offended.gees it sux that your hurting.so much goin on with you mamas. i wish you would come to me bout these things.
i see that you took a step back and looked at your life.bravo you grew up!we made mistakes mamas we aint perfect you rember? i was ther with you. and almost died together!!!. rember lol? also. your younger then me. and did more shit...
i never got the chance to do still. you did amazing things. i loved hearing aoiut them. i rember one time you called me up..drunk lol. quite entertaing to say the least you brought back so many memories. sometimes its nice to get away. we are young nad maybe shit right now aint great. you have reasons why you get away. many reasons.
shit your unhappy. unhappy with your self unhappy with your life and where its heading. lost elena and then charlie. it just not bin fair to you. but ma....your friends and family are still here. did you rember them. charlie wouldnt want you like this or this way.
and sometimes you might even do it for fun . and thats ok. but just like all things thers limitations and bein the one in control. thats the next step its hard. but its the next challenge in your life. we are not perfect and some times thing may not go the we want it to go. thats life. no body said it would be. i hate bein a female....
i hate having all these feelins...emotion's it becomes to much some times. thoe i'm sure many people sometime they wanna die. but i got stuff to live for and so do you dont kill your self over guilt or people pissing you off and people gettin you involved in ther drama.. always rember thers always something good and amazeing mamas. nothins ever perfect. we just gotta suck it up and hike up the skirt. & take it.
thoe you'v made regreats thers always a lesson to be learned.& you learned more shit then i can count at such a young age. most of them i havnt experiance. you lived it shit you should write a book about it. it could maybe help a kid out. kid out ther is goin threw the same things you are.
just keep your head mamas...you be fine u kno i love u
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