Annus Horribulis
Wow this year has been really frakking great.
Got dumped after 8 years, yet kicked from the home we shared, and then not be able to contact her about returning her stuff. I in part miss her, but I have moved on and I am sure she has too. I hope she is happy regardless of who she is with. I have no bitterness towards her and I just wish she would show the same to me. While I was never the best boyfriend ever, I never did what some do and I am glad of that.
Jerked around at work as per normal. Got my second first and final warning for standing up for myself and yet because the manager who reported me was "scared" of me, I get done by HR for being "aggressive". Love how they can use my assertiveness against me. Unfortunately still at IKEA, but I am working hard on finding something, almost anything just so I can get away from there.
This year, I have lived in three different places, and I owe my parents for allowing me to stay with them while I picked myself off the ground and dusted myself off. Still haven't really figured out what to do or where to go, but hopefully next year will give me some idea. Still haven't got everything in order in the new place, but then I haven't spent much time in the garage looking at things. Uni stuff that I am going to condense or write down where it came from and then look it up again at a later point. That is if I can ever get a goal for my studies again.
Found someone that I like and I think the year is finally is picking up. She figures it out and then after a few cool days together, she lets me know that she wants to get back with her ex. I am cool with this. However a few things go badly and I feel like a fool. (No offense to the other Fool, of course.) Things that I have misunderstood, and at the moment something that I said that has been misunderstood. I wish that she realised exactly what I feel towards her (even though I shouldn't). This would allow what I said to be taken in a different light. I care for her (even though she has said that she does not for me), and I would never ever say what she thinks I did. Just want to know when she will talk to me again. Really not in a good place right now. Annoyed that I can't go back and reword what I had said, annoyed that I continually find ways to screw things up.
Got dumped after 8 years, yet kicked from the home we shared, and then not be able to contact her about returning her stuff. I in part miss her, but I have moved on and I am sure she has too. I hope she is happy regardless of who she is with. I have no bitterness towards her and I just wish she would show the same to me. While I was never the best boyfriend ever, I never did what some do and I am glad of that.
Jerked around at work as per normal. Got my second first and final warning for standing up for myself and yet because the manager who reported me was "scared" of me, I get done by HR for being "aggressive". Love how they can use my assertiveness against me. Unfortunately still at IKEA, but I am working hard on finding something, almost anything just so I can get away from there.
This year, I have lived in three different places, and I owe my parents for allowing me to stay with them while I picked myself off the ground and dusted myself off. Still haven't really figured out what to do or where to go, but hopefully next year will give me some idea. Still haven't got everything in order in the new place, but then I haven't spent much time in the garage looking at things. Uni stuff that I am going to condense or write down where it came from and then look it up again at a later point. That is if I can ever get a goal for my studies again.
Found someone that I like and I think the year is finally is picking up. She figures it out and then after a few cool days together, she lets me know that she wants to get back with her ex. I am cool with this. However a few things go badly and I feel like a fool. (No offense to the other Fool, of course.) Things that I have misunderstood, and at the moment something that I said that has been misunderstood. I wish that she realised exactly what I feel towards her (even though I shouldn't). This would allow what I said to be taken in a different light. I care for her (even though she has said that she does not for me), and I would never ever say what she thinks I did. Just want to know when she will talk to me again. Really not in a good place right now. Annoyed that I can't go back and reword what I had said, annoyed that I continually find ways to screw things up.