Learning the hard way.
No, I have not contacted Sara yet. I am putting it off for a few more months. I think that my head is in the right place, just making sure.
As it is I am trying now to apply what I have learnt from the ending of the relationship and am trying and hopefully getting to better myself from the flaws that I believe were part of the problem. These being unaware of personal selfishness and a lack of understanding of where Sara was at and how she was feeling. I think that the only problem I had with trying to understand her was when I would ask "What is wrong?", truly not knowing or being oblivious (quite possible knowing me) to the answer, I would get the reply "Nothing". From now on I will not settle for that answer, if something is wrong I would like to know, so that if it is something that I am doing, I will stop it or correct it. This doesn't just apply to relationships, it applies to all my friends. If something is wrong tell me, if it is something that I am doing I will stop it or I will lose more people that I care about.
I also am not to get complacent about anything. Life is dynamic and everything in it should be as well. In all of this, I am just trying to become a better person. I am flawed, I know this, but I am trying to make those flaws less. :)
As it is I am trying now to apply what I have learnt from the ending of the relationship and am trying and hopefully getting to better myself from the flaws that I believe were part of the problem. These being unaware of personal selfishness and a lack of understanding of where Sara was at and how she was feeling. I think that the only problem I had with trying to understand her was when I would ask "What is wrong?", truly not knowing or being oblivious (quite possible knowing me) to the answer, I would get the reply "Nothing". From now on I will not settle for that answer, if something is wrong I would like to know, so that if it is something that I am doing, I will stop it or correct it. This doesn't just apply to relationships, it applies to all my friends. If something is wrong tell me, if it is something that I am doing I will stop it or I will lose more people that I care about.
I also am not to get complacent about anything. Life is dynamic and everything in it should be as well. In all of this, I am just trying to become a better person. I am flawed, I know this, but I am trying to make those flaws less. :)