I want off this roller coaster

[ookami_republic]

The past month or so has been a pain. Too much pain both emotionally and physically for me. Things have seemingly been going in a huge downward spiral and don't seem to be able to pull out of the gorramed thing. Between deaths/illnesses in the family, cars, work, and other things, I really wish that I had the ability to control or fix things.

Hopefully it stops soon.

Not even sure where I am headed anymore. Had plans, and they have met the enemy. Namely me.