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Sometimes i get mad at myself because get lost in dreams about the future and good memories and i forget to live in the moment
I try not to day dream and live in the moment and not wish the time away, but its so hard when nothing seems to be going your way
My summer was amazing
i loved living in NYC and working at a bar at the US Open
once i got to school...
my roomates turned out to be psycho and destroy property
have their parents come here and yell at me even though i had nothing to do with anything
move out
make me pay more money..money that i don't have
then a gay guy moves in
trash talks about me to my friend thinking i won't find out about it
then i get drugged at a club and rushed to the ER
my parents think i'm a binge drinking hooker, i'm sure
then the gay guy all of a sudden leaves
calls the cops on me and my roomate b/c we won't let him take the rest of his stuff without paying us first
cops said we couldn't do that, so we ultimately got screwed over paying his bills and rent
oh yea, and that was the night i was supposed to go out with all my friends from here for my birthday that i basically haven't seen all year
we ended up not going out and hanging out with the providence police instead
basically the worst birthday ever
When this all i have to deal with, i don't really feel bad about wishing my time away because i can't stand it in RI
i feel like ever since i've come here i haven't had much luck
the best time i've had in college was the first 3 months i was in the dorm with alyssa and marisa
it's been hell ever since
i thought college was supposed to be the best years of your life?
i'm coming to realize that the best years of my life consist of the three months in the summer when i can live at home in NJ and be with the best people in the world
i looked up schools to transfer to..none have a very good hotel program
it's kinda sad that the only reason i'm staying at Johnson&Wales is so i can leave the country for three months next year
i'm staying here so i can leave?..somehow i don't think that makes much sense, but whatever..
then i come to think why am i wasting like over $100,000 on school if i'm miserable? Maybe i should just walk at graduation in May and work with my associates for a while
my mom doesn't seem to understand that hotels don't hire for "summer help"..considering she is a job nazi i guess i'm not surprised that she doesn't understand that
I want to have a full time job at a hotel, of course, that's what i'm going to school for, but the timing sucks. I'm going to work my ass off to get a job at a hotel this summer, but i won't be surprised if it doesn't work out again this summer. My plans fell through last summer, what should make this one any different? I'm okay if i'm not working in a hotel this summer, b/c i know i'm going to come back to school in August and get a job at one..but i'll disappoint my mom if i don't have one this summer. I'm 20..it's weird to say...but at what point do we have to stop doing what our parents want us to do and start doing things for ourselves? Do we still have to listen to them if we live in the same house?..is that the rule? you don't have to listen to your parents if you don't live under "their roof"?
i'm confused
i get upset because i feel like my mom pushes me to hard on the job issue and i insist that i'll do everything in my own time..but yea, i haven't done anything yet. It's actually come to the point where i don't want to call home b/c she's just going to harass me with job questions that i'm not going to have the answers to and then she'll get mad and think that i'm a waste.
i just don't know
i want to curl up into a ball and sleep for a looongg time...preferably on the beach
As much as i'm dying for summer to come in 60 days i have a lot of work to do that i think requires more than 60 days
*life*
I try not to day dream and live in the moment and not wish the time away, but its so hard when nothing seems to be going your way
My summer was amazing
i loved living in NYC and working at a bar at the US Open
once i got to school...
my roomates turned out to be psycho and destroy property
have their parents come here and yell at me even though i had nothing to do with anything
move out
make me pay more money..money that i don't have
then a gay guy moves in
trash talks about me to my friend thinking i won't find out about it
then i get drugged at a club and rushed to the ER
my parents think i'm a binge drinking hooker, i'm sure
then the gay guy all of a sudden leaves
calls the cops on me and my roomate b/c we won't let him take the rest of his stuff without paying us first
cops said we couldn't do that, so we ultimately got screwed over paying his bills and rent
oh yea, and that was the night i was supposed to go out with all my friends from here for my birthday that i basically haven't seen all year
we ended up not going out and hanging out with the providence police instead
basically the worst birthday ever
When this all i have to deal with, i don't really feel bad about wishing my time away because i can't stand it in RI
i feel like ever since i've come here i haven't had much luck
the best time i've had in college was the first 3 months i was in the dorm with alyssa and marisa
it's been hell ever since
i thought college was supposed to be the best years of your life?
i'm coming to realize that the best years of my life consist of the three months in the summer when i can live at home in NJ and be with the best people in the world
i looked up schools to transfer to..none have a very good hotel program
it's kinda sad that the only reason i'm staying at Johnson&Wales is so i can leave the country for three months next year
i'm staying here so i can leave?..somehow i don't think that makes much sense, but whatever..
then i come to think why am i wasting like over $100,000 on school if i'm miserable? Maybe i should just walk at graduation in May and work with my associates for a while
my mom doesn't seem to understand that hotels don't hire for "summer help"..considering she is a job nazi i guess i'm not surprised that she doesn't understand that
I want to have a full time job at a hotel, of course, that's what i'm going to school for, but the timing sucks. I'm going to work my ass off to get a job at a hotel this summer, but i won't be surprised if it doesn't work out again this summer. My plans fell through last summer, what should make this one any different? I'm okay if i'm not working in a hotel this summer, b/c i know i'm going to come back to school in August and get a job at one..but i'll disappoint my mom if i don't have one this summer. I'm 20..it's weird to say...but at what point do we have to stop doing what our parents want us to do and start doing things for ourselves? Do we still have to listen to them if we live in the same house?..is that the rule? you don't have to listen to your parents if you don't live under "their roof"?
i'm confused
i get upset because i feel like my mom pushes me to hard on the job issue and i insist that i'll do everything in my own time..but yea, i haven't done anything yet. It's actually come to the point where i don't want to call home b/c she's just going to harass me with job questions that i'm not going to have the answers to and then she'll get mad and think that i'm a waste.
i just don't know
i want to curl up into a ball and sleep for a looongg time...preferably on the beach
As much as i'm dying for summer to come in 60 days i have a lot of work to do that i think requires more than 60 days
*life*