Shit is just crazy
Im just sick and fucking tired of it all .. seems like everyone just hurts everyone all the time and im seriously soo angry right now. People dont realize the the things they do and the pain they can cause in someones life putting others down for your own ego-boost is fucking PATHETIC.. i hate the hate that seems to be everywhere everyday. it just hurts me more then anything seeing people putting those different ones down 4 something that cant do anything about im sure if they could they would! i really just wish i could change it all. change the way people treat others,change the way people act,the way they hurt,feel so everyone can be happy and treat eachother like they deserve and no one would ever feel sad or alone. Im tired of everyone being stupid and just not even caring about how they make others feel by how they treat them i hate seeing people hurt and being hurt. The ones who know me know ive never felt so strongly about anyother thing in my life then i do about hurting someone cus their different,have problems they cant control or do anything about and just want to be noticed or at least talked to so they know that their not just a ghost you see walking down the hall everyday .. if people only took the time out and werent so selfish,ignorant and concieted maybe the shit that go downs all the time wouldnt!
So next time you wanna put sumone down just think about it this way . . "Would you want someone doing that to you?" cause if you not you can cause sumone to lead to this .. .
Hey everyone.
I am leaving today. leaving for good. if you are one of my friends or family i am sorry. its a long story. the notebook i left behind should tell some of it.
love always, Jennifer
I know to the ones who also knew her it hurts to read that. Wishing you could of read it before and stopped it b4 all that happend happend.I know she went through soooo much and had soo many problems in her life and i'd do anything to go back and take away all of her sadness and pain she had to experience and making everything positive out of the negatives she had.I just wish she didnt give up like she did.I'd read her journal she had and just reading some of the things she wrote in it makes Me just ball .. reading the problems she had with other people and reading the things they wrote about her and said about her freaking kills Me .. and whats sad is it was ppl that was supposed to be her friends who said the hateful things about Jen. I know about the other reasons and problems she had in her life and you can only take sooo much until you feel like you cant take anymore. You know maybe if only sumone would of payed attention to her instead of enoring her im sure it would of meant the world to her.. to be noticed and for her pain to go away.To be accepted. Im sure there were those times when she was happy .. but sometimes it cant make up for the time spent in pain. She befriended Me when I started off here n 7th grade and didnt know anyone and im thankful for that .. for being blessed as sumone she touched in her life and i know the other ones are to.
I never imagined that watching things like this happen in movies would ever happen to Me .. but I was indeed wrong. I dont expect this to change how you treat others and judge them .. I just hope you can try and see things from different prospectives when it comes to treating people and realizing how much someone can make a impact on anothers life. I know it may have been wrong to put the last thing she ever wrote in her lj on this .. but maybe it can stop something else like this from happening to someone.
<3 May you R.I.P <3
Jennifer Ciani
6/05/88 - 1/12/05
So next time you wanna put sumone down just think about it this way . . "Would you want someone doing that to you?" cause if you not you can cause sumone to lead to this .. .
Hey everyone.
I am leaving today. leaving for good. if you are one of my friends or family i am sorry. its a long story. the notebook i left behind should tell some of it.
love always, Jennifer
I know to the ones who also knew her it hurts to read that. Wishing you could of read it before and stopped it b4 all that happend happend.I know she went through soooo much and had soo many problems in her life and i'd do anything to go back and take away all of her sadness and pain she had to experience and making everything positive out of the negatives she had.I just wish she didnt give up like she did.I'd read her journal she had and just reading some of the things she wrote in it makes Me just ball .. reading the problems she had with other people and reading the things they wrote about her and said about her freaking kills Me .. and whats sad is it was ppl that was supposed to be her friends who said the hateful things about Jen. I know about the other reasons and problems she had in her life and you can only take sooo much until you feel like you cant take anymore. You know maybe if only sumone would of payed attention to her instead of enoring her im sure it would of meant the world to her.. to be noticed and for her pain to go away.To be accepted. Im sure there were those times when she was happy .. but sometimes it cant make up for the time spent in pain. She befriended Me when I started off here n 7th grade and didnt know anyone and im thankful for that .. for being blessed as sumone she touched in her life and i know the other ones are to.
I never imagined that watching things like this happen in movies would ever happen to Me .. but I was indeed wrong. I dont expect this to change how you treat others and judge them .. I just hope you can try and see things from different prospectives when it comes to treating people and realizing how much someone can make a impact on anothers life. I know it may have been wrong to put the last thing she ever wrote in her lj on this .. but maybe it can stop something else like this from happening to someone.
<3 May you R.I.P <3
Jennifer Ciani
6/05/88 - 1/12/05