Talk change

[oohhyaa]

Its weird how you talk to people.........then you notice that they start talking to you differently.........and you are basically the one carrieing on the convo and they make it seem like they dont really care........in person its horrible when that heppens........but online its a lot easier for this to happen.........but the problem online is that you cannot really tell how a person is feeling you cant see them so its not as personal as one on one.......it just seems that there is really no one to talk to anymore really.........i do talk to people.........a few people i talk to i can talk to a little more openly..........but nowadays i have no one to just talk to and be fully open............truthfully i dont know if i've ever had that..........tonights just weird........i day dream too much.......and hope for the best on almost everything and if i dont hope for the best i try to make myself.........it just brings me down at times because it never really works out the way i want it to.......i'm not complaining or anything.......i know things wont always work out........but my outlook just brings me down at times......i mainly just have that outlook for other people at times..........and a lot of them like it but there are times when people say things that just hurt........and even thought it hurts i still have that outlook even though i dont want to ........and i dont abandon them.........i try to help but i just can't 99% of the time.......i can only be there......and i will always be there........its just the other people arent........and if they say things that hurt its like it never happened afterwards........

I'm not really down right now.........i'm just Blah.........i'll probably be allright in the morning............

A couple cool things are that my b-day is in like 12 days or something.......and i'm gonna be 21.........so thats cool.......and in a few weeks (hopefully) i'm moving out ........and moving into a house with a couple of friends............and thats gonna be cool.............and on that note i dont know if i'm gonna beable to come online when i move out.........i will eventually but i might not right away so if anyone wants to talk to me..........your gonna have to call me.......and if you dont have my # you can ask and i'll give it to you..............well thats enough for now...........i'm going to go into my dreams that i look forward to because dreams give me hope for something incredible to happen.........i know i should live life to the fullest and just go for it.........i tell myself that constantly and remind myself about all the inspirational things i've learned or heard about.........and all the incredible things in life.......even if i'm down........but you know how it goes.........sometimes all that just sucks............well goodnight