dreams, #6
99. I dreamt I missed
my train to Manila
because I was trying
on an Alexander Wang slip dress
(sky blue).
100. I dreamt I met
the amalgamation of everyone's
ex-girlfriends. She
didn't like me
but said hi anyway.
101. I dreamt you wanted to tell me everything
even if it would damn you,
even if I was writing it all down
but you desired me,
and that complicated things.
102. In my dreams I'm
always chewing you out
though there's
nothing left to say.
103. I dreamt we bought
pounds and pounds of
coffee,
like bags of rice from the Asian market.
You wanted to grind it all
but I said no.
104. I dreamt of old lovers,
nary a welcome sight.
105. I dreamt I reconsidered
my decision
to get off at Headhouse Square
when the bus driver
offered us sips of his
dark rum.
106. I dreamt I met my Lola Toleng.
A ghost. She was tall,
stately and beautiful
and I was frightened,
forgot all my questions
for her, couldn't even
say a word. But she
was polite, like I imagined,
and apologized
for bringing with her
a rush of cold air.
107. I dreamt I won a trip to Boracay,
but on the ferry, I dropped
my copy of The Brothers Karamazov
into the sea.
108. I dreamt I couldn't
find my way out of
the Broad St. Line
and you were crying
but I didn't know
exactly why.
109. I dreamt your mom
lived in Philadelphia
like you
and your brother.
"You should visit her,"
you said. "She
would like that."
110. I dreamt I woke up
on stage
my glasses were broken
and I tried to charm
the audience but I couldn't talk myself out of
this one.
111. I dreamt we were lovers
on a backpacking trip
but I kept
thinking
of others.
112. I dreamt you met my brother
and then it was so --
we were intertwined
despite despite despite --
113. I dreamt it was complicated,
but it felt so
good, you set the table
for us all even though you didn't
want us there --
"How Filipino," I later
thought.
114. I dreamt I had found my way
into my ex-boyfriend's apartment
and I was just getting comfortable
when I realize he might come
home.
115. I dreamt I was small enough
to fit between your
windshield and your steering wheel
and you said I wasn't in the way
and I touched your wrist and wondered
if your girlfriend would care.
116. I dreamt we had agreed
to engage --
so we took of all our clothes
at which point I realized
I wanted you
to undress me.
my train to Manila
because I was trying
on an Alexander Wang slip dress
(sky blue).
100. I dreamt I met
the amalgamation of everyone's
ex-girlfriends. She
didn't like me
but said hi anyway.
101. I dreamt you wanted to tell me everything
even if it would damn you,
even if I was writing it all down
but you desired me,
and that complicated things.
102. In my dreams I'm
always chewing you out
though there's
nothing left to say.
103. I dreamt we bought
pounds and pounds of
coffee,
like bags of rice from the Asian market.
You wanted to grind it all
but I said no.
104. I dreamt of old lovers,
nary a welcome sight.
105. I dreamt I reconsidered
my decision
to get off at Headhouse Square
when the bus driver
offered us sips of his
dark rum.
106. I dreamt I met my Lola Toleng.
A ghost. She was tall,
stately and beautiful
and I was frightened,
forgot all my questions
for her, couldn't even
say a word. But she
was polite, like I imagined,
and apologized
for bringing with her
a rush of cold air.
107. I dreamt I won a trip to Boracay,
but on the ferry, I dropped
my copy of The Brothers Karamazov
into the sea.
108. I dreamt I couldn't
find my way out of
the Broad St. Line
and you were crying
but I didn't know
exactly why.
109. I dreamt your mom
lived in Philadelphia
like you
and your brother.
"You should visit her,"
you said. "She
would like that."
110. I dreamt I woke up
on stage
my glasses were broken
and I tried to charm
the audience but I couldn't talk myself out of
this one.
111. I dreamt we were lovers
on a backpacking trip
but I kept
thinking
of others.
112. I dreamt you met my brother
and then it was so --
we were intertwined
despite despite despite --
113. I dreamt it was complicated,
but it felt so
good, you set the table
for us all even though you didn't
want us there --
"How Filipino," I later
thought.
114. I dreamt I had found my way
into my ex-boyfriend's apartment
and I was just getting comfortable
when I realize he might come
home.
115. I dreamt I was small enough
to fit between your
windshield and your steering wheel
and you said I wasn't in the way
and I touched your wrist and wondered
if your girlfriend would care.
116. I dreamt we had agreed
to engage --
so we took of all our clothes
at which point I realized
I wanted you
to undress me.