dreams, #5
79. I dreamt you were a mess
on your knees at the wedding
puking, doubled over
for all to see but I
was at your side.
80. I dreamt my older brother was a bachelor
again
and his roommates were drinking
Caprisun
pulled straight from the fridge, while I
watched on,
worried about his well-being.
81. I dreamt I got mad at you,
just erupted, like
old times.
82. I dreamt I had the urge
to give you and your sister
massages
so I asked you
sheepishly
to take your clothes off.
83. I dreamt I walked in on you three after you had made love.
You looked so casual and satisfied, you said,
"You're not mad, are you?"
84. Thinking of my father, I dreamt
I wondered if I should have
given my resume to the Wall St. Journal.
85. I dreamt he said, "Do you
feel good?"
and I realized
I did.
86. I dreamt I saw you jogging
on the moon so I started jogging,
too, when I realized we would cross
paths. I wanted you to stop me
and say hi, and you did, after
all these years, your hair redder
than I remembered and you kept brushing it out of your eyes.
87. I dreamt we were at your wedding but no one
knew how to speak into the microphone.
"You have to hold it like this," I told
them. I was exuberant. And when I woke,
I was doing a jig to the sound of bagpipes.
88.
89. I dreamt we arrived
at the lunch line
and you said, "The internet
is scary." I pointed
at the chunky burgers
and said, "Real life is
scary, too."
90. I dreamt you got
a vibrator -- pink, like
mine -- for lunch.
91. I dreamt Philly looked like London's
financial district
and I couldn't climb the last
flight of stairs to the Broad
St. Line, it was too steep.
So a man came to my aid
and I wasn't indignant.
92. I dreamt of kiwi berries,
of bicycles with electrical outlets, of getting in trouble
for being barefoot.
I dreamt of leaving you for dead
for no good reason
than the fact that I wanted your fancy alcohol for myself.
93. I dreamt a boy broke up
with me, and I said,
"You really think this was a big deal
to me?" And suddenly, I
attacked him as he wheeled
his bike out of the garage.
94. I dreamt I was too sleepy
to operate my phone and when
I finally found you, you
were made, over it, and
you told me as much.
I cut you off before you
could finish -- something about
how I was too crazy, though
you said, "This was nice."
And I scoffed and immediately
texted my friend.
95. I dreamt a boy broke up
with me and as he wheeled
his bike out of our garage,
his tire fell off and he said,
"Oh, you wanted that to happen."
96. I dreamt you tripped and your
Google Glass-esque contraption
fell off your face and you
caught my eye, betraying
what I read as uncertainty --
but what did I know?
97. I dreamt you invited me up
to show me
the door you had made,
was it cherrywood?
But it was beautiful,
and I wanted to be like
you.
on your knees at the wedding
puking, doubled over
for all to see but I
was at your side.
80. I dreamt my older brother was a bachelor
again
and his roommates were drinking
Caprisun
pulled straight from the fridge, while I
watched on,
worried about his well-being.
81. I dreamt I got mad at you,
just erupted, like
old times.
82. I dreamt I had the urge
to give you and your sister
massages
so I asked you
sheepishly
to take your clothes off.
83. I dreamt I walked in on you three after you had made love.
You looked so casual and satisfied, you said,
"You're not mad, are you?"
84. Thinking of my father, I dreamt
I wondered if I should have
given my resume to the Wall St. Journal.
85. I dreamt he said, "Do you
feel good?"
and I realized
I did.
86. I dreamt I saw you jogging
on the moon so I started jogging,
too, when I realized we would cross
paths. I wanted you to stop me
and say hi, and you did, after
all these years, your hair redder
than I remembered and you kept brushing it out of your eyes.
87. I dreamt we were at your wedding but no one
knew how to speak into the microphone.
"You have to hold it like this," I told
them. I was exuberant. And when I woke,
I was doing a jig to the sound of bagpipes.
88.
89. I dreamt we arrived
at the lunch line
and you said, "The internet
is scary." I pointed
at the chunky burgers
and said, "Real life is
scary, too."
90. I dreamt you got
a vibrator -- pink, like
mine -- for lunch.
91. I dreamt Philly looked like London's
financial district
and I couldn't climb the last
flight of stairs to the Broad
St. Line, it was too steep.
So a man came to my aid
and I wasn't indignant.
92. I dreamt of kiwi berries,
of bicycles with electrical outlets, of getting in trouble
for being barefoot.
I dreamt of leaving you for dead
for no good reason
than the fact that I wanted your fancy alcohol for myself.
93. I dreamt a boy broke up
with me, and I said,
"You really think this was a big deal
to me?" And suddenly, I
attacked him as he wheeled
his bike out of the garage.
94. I dreamt I was too sleepy
to operate my phone and when
I finally found you, you
were made, over it, and
you told me as much.
I cut you off before you
could finish -- something about
how I was too crazy, though
you said, "This was nice."
And I scoffed and immediately
texted my friend.
95. I dreamt a boy broke up
with me and as he wheeled
his bike out of our garage,
his tire fell off and he said,
"Oh, you wanted that to happen."
96. I dreamt you tripped and your
Google Glass-esque contraption
fell off your face and you
caught my eye, betraying
what I read as uncertainty --
but what did I know?
97. I dreamt you invited me up
to show me
the door you had made,
was it cherrywood?
But it was beautiful,
and I wanted to be like
you.