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when life hands you lemons, make apple juice.
i dont know how im going to handle everything thats been going on lately. its all been so hard but i think everythings going to be for the better in the end. i like the fact that ive been getting out more lately. tonight im going to a bitchinschweet pool party at 7 and then partying it up with my bitch (who cant actually party) but im still expecting a good time as always. i feel like these past 13 months i forgot who i was and who my friends were. actually i did forget who i was and who my friends were but im glad that im starting to find myself again and be happy doing whatever it is that i care to do.
gary dumped me on the 17th and ive been fighting with him about it since. i finally gave up the fight though. he moved out of my house and into his friend rob because he wanted to have 'space' and so i gave it to him. after a week at robs he realized that he didnt miss me and didnt want to be with me anymore. he also started spending a lot of time with robs 16 year old sister. after he dumped me and crushed my heart in every way possible he told me that he just wanted to be single cause hes never been alone before. i still argued with him about it. it didnt change anything.
last week i found out that he made out with her and it tore me apart and i did something wrong and it wasnt my place to do it. i took his best friend from him and almost the girl that he liked now. sometimes i wonder if he was more upset about losing his best friend or the girl he had a crush on, his best friends sister.
tonight i found out that gary and krystal are now a couple. i resent him so much right now. but if i really love and care about him the way i feel and say i do all i can say is that im happy that hes found someone to be happy with for the time being until he gets bored again. then hes going to break that poor girls heart as well. i use to be jealous of her now i just feel bad for her because i know whats eventually coming to her.
im trying so hard to be stronger and act more mature about all of this. the past few days have been a lot better in some sense. but it would be a lot nicer if i had someone to lay in bed with to help me fall asleep. if anyone is interisted let me know.
i dont know how im going to handle everything thats been going on lately. its all been so hard but i think everythings going to be for the better in the end. i like the fact that ive been getting out more lately. tonight im going to a bitchinschweet pool party at 7 and then partying it up with my bitch (who cant actually party) but im still expecting a good time as always. i feel like these past 13 months i forgot who i was and who my friends were. actually i did forget who i was and who my friends were but im glad that im starting to find myself again and be happy doing whatever it is that i care to do.
gary dumped me on the 17th and ive been fighting with him about it since. i finally gave up the fight though. he moved out of my house and into his friend rob because he wanted to have 'space' and so i gave it to him. after a week at robs he realized that he didnt miss me and didnt want to be with me anymore. he also started spending a lot of time with robs 16 year old sister. after he dumped me and crushed my heart in every way possible he told me that he just wanted to be single cause hes never been alone before. i still argued with him about it. it didnt change anything.
last week i found out that he made out with her and it tore me apart and i did something wrong and it wasnt my place to do it. i took his best friend from him and almost the girl that he liked now. sometimes i wonder if he was more upset about losing his best friend or the girl he had a crush on, his best friends sister.
tonight i found out that gary and krystal are now a couple. i resent him so much right now. but if i really love and care about him the way i feel and say i do all i can say is that im happy that hes found someone to be happy with for the time being until he gets bored again. then hes going to break that poor girls heart as well. i use to be jealous of her now i just feel bad for her because i know whats eventually coming to her.
im trying so hard to be stronger and act more mature about all of this. the past few days have been a lot better in some sense. but it would be a lot nicer if i had someone to lay in bed with to help me fall asleep. if anyone is interisted let me know.