lonely

[ooh_baby_baby]

my friends came to see me.

only two of them could make it.

it made me realize how bad lubbock is.
&wish i had friends here.

now i'm real sad again.
i kind of just want to cry.
&my chest is all heavy.

i don't know how i'm supposed to meet people though.
go to parties?
cause that hasn't worked so far.
i haven't met anyone.

i just want to have people to sit around with and do nothing.

also i was looking at old pictures today.
stuff from when my parents like first got married and stuff.
&it kind of scares me that i will never be in love and happy like that.
i'm terified to be alone.

I start my job tomorrow.
i'm going to be surrounded by a bunch of fucking idiots i feel like.
it's gonna be a lot of people doing nothing with their lives
&have no marketable skills to get a job that's not this shitty.