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i knew that i wouldnt feel anything
but i needed to see if there was something
anything that would change my opinion
now that he is in a different place
there wasnt
there wasnt anything that made me think twice
nothing appealing
it is what it is
and i'm more than okay with what i have and will have
i know now that i have a friend
i know now that i'm not a joke to him
we can still talk about life and crazy existential things
i can still hang out with him and his sister
and appreciate his ridiculousness
he wants and needs my advice
he trusts me and i trust him more than i did
but really i think i just understand him more
it's all good
but i needed to see if there was something
anything that would change my opinion
now that he is in a different place
there wasnt
there wasnt anything that made me think twice
nothing appealing
it is what it is
and i'm more than okay with what i have and will have
i know now that i have a friend
i know now that i'm not a joke to him
we can still talk about life and crazy existential things
i can still hang out with him and his sister
and appreciate his ridiculousness
he wants and needs my advice
he trusts me and i trust him more than i did
but really i think i just understand him more
it's all good