Someone's Out to Get Me!!!
Okay, I don't know what the fuck is happening, but it needs to stop. It started last night. See, I went outside to look for all my cats and bring them inside in the heat, cause it was freezing cold last night. So, I'm looking and I find all of my cats except Toby. I didn't really stress it cause I told myself that she would be fine cause she usually climbs in the roof at night. Well, this morning I wake up to cats fighting and go outside to see if it was Toby. No, it wasn't her, but I see her laying under my truck. Well, I walk to the truck and she's lying with her back facing me. So I call her and she doesn't respond. Then, I don't even see her breathing or moving. I start to panick and fly to the other side of the truck to see why she's not moving. Well, I go to the other side of the truck to find my cat Toby dead. Yes, Dead!!! I start to scream and cry and I can't even control myself. I run inside my house screaming and telling my mom and sister what I had seen. Well, this wasn't just any ordinary cat. See, I've had this cat forever. She was 15 yrs. old and was the first cat I had ever had. I loved this cat with all my heart. She was everything to me, and now she's gone. I keep telling myself that she was old and that she's in a better place, but it's so hard when you've had a cat that long. I don't know what's going on. It's like everything bad is happening to me lately. Like someone's out to make me miserable. Am I even going to have a good Christmas? I don't even know. I've always been one to love animals so much and have always defended them. Now, this is how I get repayed. This is horrible for me. And why does it always have to be me to find them dead? I just wish all of this could stop and I could just be happy. But now I miss my cat and I'm so sad. Everyone keeps telling me that things will get better, but I hope it happens soon or I'm going to go crazy.
R.I.P. Toby. I hope you are happy now in your new home up in Heaven.