I'm done!
So..yeah. I'm feelin a little horrible right now. Just "one of those days" I guess. This feeling is overwhelming...Its like sawdust, the unhappiness: It infiltrates everything, everything seems to be a problem, everything makes me upset and everything makes me wanna cry - school, homework, jobs, friends, family, the future, the lack of future, the uncertainty of future, fear of future, fear in general- but its soo hard to say exactly what the problem is in the first place..
I have this palpable, absolute sense that I'm cracking up, that there's really no good reason why, and that...even worse...there's nothing I can do about it. And the thing that's really bugging me, as I lie here..curled up...is that this position, this scene I seem to be enacting reminds me of something:...It reminds me of my whole life. and I just dont know what to do, 'cause I know by now, only too well, that you can never get away from yourself because you never go away.
I never hated myself so much...
Looks like it's gonna be another sleepless night my friends....
I have this palpable, absolute sense that I'm cracking up, that there's really no good reason why, and that...even worse...there's nothing I can do about it. And the thing that's really bugging me, as I lie here..curled up...is that this position, this scene I seem to be enacting reminds me of something:...It reminds me of my whole life. and I just dont know what to do, 'cause I know by now, only too well, that you can never get away from yourself because you never go away.
I never hated myself so much...
Looks like it's gonna be another sleepless night my friends....