long time huh
so0o yea.. it has been so long since i have updated the livejournal. Any how since i last wrote things for me have been very very different.
You can say i am rollig on a different ball game now. I am currently at FIU as most of you know already and let me say so far its been great i have kept a 4.0 GPA which i mean its not a biggie but most people told me that when i enter college things wont come so easy but so far i have proven that i can make it in this new environment.
As i have always been, i am still involved in school. i have am currently a new member of a sorority called Alpha Xi Delta or AZD which has been so far an awsome experience for me. I never thought i would make changes when i arrived to college. i always thought things would be the same. Instead, I have become more independent and have learned to make decisions that in the long run will only benefit me.
I have learned fifteen things in this fast couple of months:
1. Things occur for a reason.
2. sometimes friendship is about letting go, yet always holding on.
3. I've learned to appreciate life and everyone in it alot more.
4. I can be independent and alone and still have a happy and comforting life.
5. Nothing comes easy.... I've had to work very hard to have what i have at this point.
6. I am very vulnerable when it comes to "him."
7. I miss being a kid, yet enjoy being an adult.
8. I do not need to cry to show my emotions.
9. Life is about give and take.
10. (Yili) The Best things come to those who wait for...
11. I can express how i truly feel and not feel bad about it.
12. Not everyone can be loyal but those who are, are true friends.
13. I love my father every day more and i am learning to understand him.(memories make me stronger)
14. Heartaches come with growing up.
15. Last but not least, I've learned not to thing twice and just DO IT!!!
So, I pretty sure ive learned many more things but hey you can't list everything you know in one entry.
I have been enjoying the college life so far and it has been great. Janet yili and i have been doing plenty of exciting things. Nothing out of the ordinary but i do know being a college student it some how feels different. I have been enjoying every weekend with this amazing girls who have been their for me through this new experiences. I have also done new things that perhaps i would have never done before and i am liking experiencing new things (no not drugs)
:: Thought:: I know how you feel, and i wish you can experience this with us or the other way around. But like you said you do not know the amazing friendship one has, until one has to let go. Although, we have gone on our different ways somehow it will always be the same. Sure we will have different stories to share but in the end we have a life time of new memories to create. I love you both. I know it will only be a short time before i can wake up every morning and say " umm... I am going to go over their house today" and actually find the carrito parked outside.
::Random (how EVERYONE says):: You make me weak. and i do not why i continue allowing myself to fall over and over again. You make me think too much of things i would not need to think about other wise. I deserve more and you know it, i've let so much go for you and in the end nothing ever chances. If we feel the same why must i be the one who always has to take the first plunge. I thought it would take two people to make something happen, not just one. You have caused me heardaches and somehow i continue wanting and looking for you. It is not fair how you know i need you and how much i love you. It would be so much easier if i would be able to hide it. They say time heals but in my case it has just opened my wound more. You are my addiction and the air i breath. you are everything i need, yet you take it all from me. i hate to love you, and i hate that you know that.
::Birthday:: (oct.3) HAPPY BDAY JESS!!! I love you!
xoxo,
Tammy =0p
You can say i am rollig on a different ball game now. I am currently at FIU as most of you know already and let me say so far its been great i have kept a 4.0 GPA which i mean its not a biggie but most people told me that when i enter college things wont come so easy but so far i have proven that i can make it in this new environment.
As i have always been, i am still involved in school. i have am currently a new member of a sorority called Alpha Xi Delta or AZD which has been so far an awsome experience for me. I never thought i would make changes when i arrived to college. i always thought things would be the same. Instead, I have become more independent and have learned to make decisions that in the long run will only benefit me.
I have learned fifteen things in this fast couple of months:
1. Things occur for a reason.
2. sometimes friendship is about letting go, yet always holding on.
3. I've learned to appreciate life and everyone in it alot more.
4. I can be independent and alone and still have a happy and comforting life.
5. Nothing comes easy.... I've had to work very hard to have what i have at this point.
6. I am very vulnerable when it comes to "him."
7. I miss being a kid, yet enjoy being an adult.
8. I do not need to cry to show my emotions.
9. Life is about give and take.
10. (Yili) The Best things come to those who wait for...
11. I can express how i truly feel and not feel bad about it.
12. Not everyone can be loyal but those who are, are true friends.
13. I love my father every day more and i am learning to understand him.(memories make me stronger)
14. Heartaches come with growing up.
15. Last but not least, I've learned not to thing twice and just DO IT!!!
So, I pretty sure ive learned many more things but hey you can't list everything you know in one entry.
I have been enjoying the college life so far and it has been great. Janet yili and i have been doing plenty of exciting things. Nothing out of the ordinary but i do know being a college student it some how feels different. I have been enjoying every weekend with this amazing girls who have been their for me through this new experiences. I have also done new things that perhaps i would have never done before and i am liking experiencing new things (no not drugs)
:: Thought:: I know how you feel, and i wish you can experience this with us or the other way around. But like you said you do not know the amazing friendship one has, until one has to let go. Although, we have gone on our different ways somehow it will always be the same. Sure we will have different stories to share but in the end we have a life time of new memories to create. I love you both. I know it will only be a short time before i can wake up every morning and say " umm... I am going to go over their house today" and actually find the carrito parked outside.
::Random (how EVERYONE says):: You make me weak. and i do not why i continue allowing myself to fall over and over again. You make me think too much of things i would not need to think about other wise. I deserve more and you know it, i've let so much go for you and in the end nothing ever chances. If we feel the same why must i be the one who always has to take the first plunge. I thought it would take two people to make something happen, not just one. You have caused me heardaches and somehow i continue wanting and looking for you. It is not fair how you know i need you and how much i love you. It would be so much easier if i would be able to hide it. They say time heals but in my case it has just opened my wound more. You are my addiction and the air i breath. you are everything i need, yet you take it all from me. i hate to love you, and i hate that you know that.
::Birthday:: (oct.3) HAPPY BDAY JESS!!! I love you!
xoxo,
Tammy =0p