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i have realized something today...tonight really. despite my best efforts, here is where my friendship with exes stands (altho i try to keep them as friends as much as possible)
the list:
anh: nonexistant friendship, altho friendly, not hostile. went to lunch last summer
wayne: same as above, no hostility, just different lives
justin: oh god, off and on hostility and depressive conversations
jer: the most friendly relationship of the group, probably because we were friends first and had a bout of hostility in the spring, which was rectified. and while he finds some of the things i say or write pointless, i can agree with him in most cases on this and am not offended.
zack does not really count as an ex, as we were never "in a relationship"
the justin situation is ridiculous. i guess im weak since i dont like cutting off a 6 year friendship due to silly childish mopey hostile reasons. frankly, ( and i know ive typed this many a time), it is in my best interest to cut all contact and ties, however, this is tricky, becuz to do that, id have to cut ties with the friends i have met thru him (mely and jimmy and their baby now), since they are so close with him. this i dont want to do, so i try to be friendly still, yet somehow always end up with him being bitchy at me becuz of something to do with jake and i. neutral standpoint now. fucking dont care anymore, and havent really for a while, just hate to be mad or detached with people, even if its for the best. its just not in my nature.
(linds, hows that web cam treating you and adam :-), hope u liked it/it worked with the set up and shiat)
the list:
anh: nonexistant friendship, altho friendly, not hostile. went to lunch last summer
wayne: same as above, no hostility, just different lives
justin: oh god, off and on hostility and depressive conversations
jer: the most friendly relationship of the group, probably because we were friends first and had a bout of hostility in the spring, which was rectified. and while he finds some of the things i say or write pointless, i can agree with him in most cases on this and am not offended.
zack does not really count as an ex, as we were never "in a relationship"
the justin situation is ridiculous. i guess im weak since i dont like cutting off a 6 year friendship due to silly childish mopey hostile reasons. frankly, ( and i know ive typed this many a time), it is in my best interest to cut all contact and ties, however, this is tricky, becuz to do that, id have to cut ties with the friends i have met thru him (mely and jimmy and their baby now), since they are so close with him. this i dont want to do, so i try to be friendly still, yet somehow always end up with him being bitchy at me becuz of something to do with jake and i. neutral standpoint now. fucking dont care anymore, and havent really for a while, just hate to be mad or detached with people, even if its for the best. its just not in my nature.
(linds, hows that web cam treating you and adam :-), hope u liked it/it worked with the set up and shiat)