wow my stupidity preceeds me...

Aug 05, 2005 14:46

okay...so I was having a convo with Justin's...ex? Kristina, and we were talking about what happened, and she asked me a few questions about Justin...my experiences/opinions...whatever...I, being the dumbass I am, thought about it and answered honestly...HONESTLY. and considering, she was already in another relationship or whatever it is, I deemed it okay. I wouldn't have said those things if they were still exclusive. Regardless, I said somethings (in restrospect) I prob shouldnt have, and really, me and my big friendly mouth were just stepping all over where they didn't belong...i was honest and when Justin Im'd me becuz he'd just read her blog... i told him id just said some things, cuz i wanted to be honest with him too...

im a fucking dumbass who just potentially ruined a friendship I've had for like...6 years. not that its a deep friendship anyways anymore, but still i hate doing shit like that and losing people. so...he's pretty fucking pissed off at me...


DisTuRbEd DacHz (1:26:57 PM): hey
PocahNani (1:27:02 PM): hello
DisTuRbEd DacHz (1:27:13 PM): i snagged your bulletin and reposted it
DisTuRbEd DacHz (1:27:29 PM): i ditched work, and am bored...but needing to go soonm, but wanted to say hi
PocahNani (1:27:31 PM): haha it's cool
DisTuRbEd DacHz (1:27:48 PM): sweet
PocahNani (1:27:49 PM): ditching work is a bad bad thing
DisTuRbEd DacHz (1:27:52 PM): no
DisTuRbEd DacHz (1:27:57 PM): i called in sick
PocahNani (1:27:58 PM): lol
DisTuRbEd DacHz (1:28:07 PM): and i havent had any work this week
DisTuRbEd DacHz (1:28:09 PM): im an intern
DisTuRbEd DacHz (1:28:35 PM): its not an important job lol, its office work...if its there...i do the work...if its not i fuck around online...which is what ive been doing the last few days
DisTuRbEd DacHz (1:28:52 PM): so i felt it was worth 60 dollars to sleep in
DisTuRbEd DacHz (1:28:57 PM): since i drank last night lol
DisTuRbEd DacHz (1:29:12 PM): anyways im rambling cuz i have noone to talk to online right now, im sorry, i do that
DisTuRbEd DacHz (1:29:19 PM): so im gonna go shower
DisTuRbEd DacHz (1:29:26 PM): cuz i have to lead a tour of my school at 230
DisTuRbEd DacHz (1:29:48 PM): but when i come back i wanna know what happened with u and j cuz i read ur blog and was surprised lol, and stories r fun
DisTuRbEd DacHz (1:30:03 PM): oh, and i am "officially" married, whee
PocahNani (1:30:06 PM): lol okay
DisTuRbEd DacHz (1:30:07 PM): ta for now
PocahNani (1:30:18 PM): buh bye
DisTuRbEd DacHz (1:46:43 PM): hokay back
PocahNani (1:46:53 PM): welcome back
DisTuRbEd DacHz (1:46:57 PM): thanks
PocahNani (1:47:27 PM): i thought you weren't getting married till december
DisTuRbEd DacHz (1:47:29 PM): so, not to be intrusive, im just curious for comparision's sake, what happened with you and justin?
DisTuRbEd DacHz (1:47:43 PM): jake's school required paperwork this fall proving he was married
DisTuRbEd DacHz (1:47:46 PM): (financial aid)
DisTuRbEd DacHz (1:47:55 PM): we are getting married in vegas in dec
PocahNani (1:47:57 PM): oooh okay
DisTuRbEd DacHz (1:48:01 PM): we just had a civil union
DisTuRbEd DacHz (1:48:03 PM): i wore jeans
DisTuRbEd DacHz (1:48:04 PM): etc
DisTuRbEd DacHz (1:48:06 PM): lol
PocahNani (1:48:18 PM): well...about justin
PocahNani (1:48:29 PM): it wasn't because he wasn't a good guy or anything like that
PocahNani (1:48:53 PM): when i first met him, was the day after i had just broken up with my ex
PocahNani (1:49:44 PM): my friend said something about....he didn't think that whatever me and justin had would ever be serious
PocahNani (1:50:01 PM): i didn't believe him at the time, but i came to realize that he was right
DisTuRbEd DacHz (1:50:11 PM): ah yeah
DisTuRbEd DacHz (1:50:19 PM): rebound syndrome
DisTuRbEd DacHz (1:50:26 PM): ive had that
PocahNani (1:50:29 PM): i didn't want to admit it
PocahNani (1:51:04 PM): i mean, i like him and all...but i don't it'll ever turn into something really serious
DisTuRbEd DacHz (1:51:08 PM): yeah
DisTuRbEd DacHz (1:51:19 PM): justin isnt...really...a serious relationship sort
DisTuRbEd DacHz (1:51:29 PM): he thinks he is sometimes
DisTuRbEd DacHz (1:51:33 PM): and probably wants it
PocahNani (1:51:35 PM): oh
DisTuRbEd DacHz (1:51:38 PM): but it never really happens
DisTuRbEd DacHz (1:51:43 PM): ive dated him twice
DisTuRbEd DacHz (1:51:46 PM): in high school
DisTuRbEd DacHz (1:52:09 PM): and last summer
DisTuRbEd DacHz (1:52:14 PM): i still think highly of him,
PocahNani (1:52:22 PM): i do also
DisTuRbEd DacHz (1:52:26 PM): but id never consider anything with him again
PocahNani (1:52:37 PM): well yeah, you're married
PocahNani (1:52:39 PM): lol
DisTuRbEd DacHz (1:52:40 PM): just becuz ive known him way too long and know him really well lol
DisTuRbEd DacHz (1:52:43 PM): oh but i mean b4 that
DisTuRbEd DacHz (1:53:01 PM): right before jake and i got really serious, justin mentioned us being together again
DisTuRbEd DacHz (1:53:11 PM): march-aprilish
DisTuRbEd DacHz (1:53:17 PM): no go lol
PocahNani (1:53:28 PM): haha yeah understandable
PocahNani (1:53:43 PM): i feel a little bad though
PocahNani (1:54:00 PM): he still calls me asking if i want to go hang out and stuff
DisTuRbEd DacHz (1:54:05 PM): yeah
DisTuRbEd DacHz (1:54:40 PM): dont feel badly, he can get ass if he needs it lol, and emotionally, arte u still giving him a chance?
PocahNani (1:54:54 PM): well, i went to this party when we first started dating...these girls told me that he was a little obbsessive
DisTuRbEd DacHz (1:55:02 PM): id just be honest about everything
DisTuRbEd DacHz (1:55:07 PM): which ones
PocahNani (1:55:17 PM): i forget their names
PocahNani (1:55:25 PM): there were three of them
DisTuRbEd DacHz (1:55:36 PM): i prob dont know them
DisTuRbEd DacHz (1:55:55 PM): but, this is just my outside opinion...i know justin was dating around a bunch
PocahNani (1:56:18 PM): he doesn't cheat does he?
DisTuRbEd DacHz (1:56:24 PM): and in march when i came down, my friend and i stopped to nap at his house cuz we hadnt slept the night b4
DisTuRbEd DacHz (1:56:29 PM): i honestly cant say for sure
DisTuRbEd DacHz (1:56:33 PM): i suspected it
PocahNani (1:56:58 PM): oooh okay
DisTuRbEd DacHz (1:57:17 PM): i had a weird experience where a girl picked up his cell phone and said she was his gf, but supposedly that was the crazy experience he had where the two girls said he trashed their car or soemthing
DisTuRbEd DacHz (1:57:24 PM): but that was the day he broke up with me last summer
DisTuRbEd DacHz (1:57:42 PM): could be all coincidental, i dont judge
DisTuRbEd DacHz (1:58:01 PM): but ive never fully trusted him, even tho he is a really good guy
DisTuRbEd DacHz (1:58:08 PM): he doesnt know i think that lol
DisTuRbEd DacHz (1:59:33 PM): i think his only problem is he doesnt like being said no to
DisTuRbEd DacHz (1:59:54 PM): its one of those weird catch 22s, where i trusted him, but i didnt
DisTuRbEd DacHz (2:00:16 PM): anywyas, my exhale of info i done
PocahNani (2:00:37 PM): justin is on the phone
DisTuRbEd DacHz (2:00:43 PM): cool
DisTuRbEd DacHz (2:01:04 PM): i need to go get ready for this tour real quick anyways, ill be in and out of the room, talk at will
DisTuRbEd DacHz (2:13:37 PM): ah shit, i told justin what id said, and hes pissed at me, im sorry i had this convo, lol man...my consensus overall is that hes a great guy who obviously likes you
PocahNani (2:14:37 PM): ::SIGH:: i hope he's okay
PocahNani (2:18:14 PM): i really didn't mean to hurt him
DisTuRbEd DacHz (2:20:17 PM): hes fine with you
DisTuRbEd DacHz (2:20:44 PM): he imd me saying hed read ur blog, and then i told him id said some things about not trusting you, just in cas eu brought it up to him that id said somethingh
DisTuRbEd DacHz (2:20:51 PM): and hes pissed at me, nothing on you
DisTuRbEd DacHz (2:20:54 PM): so, im the sorry one
DisTuRbEd DacHz (2:20:56 PM): and i have to go
PocahNani (2:21:06 PM): it's okay
PocahNani (2:21:11 PM): thanks for talking to me
DisTuRbEd DacHz (2:21:40 PM): no problem, sigh...lol thats what im here for, neutral standpoint
PocahNani signed off at 2:27:58 PM.

JustinScc (2:03:30 PM): geez
DisTuRbEd DacHz (2:07:17 PM): what?
JustinScc (2:07:29 PM): i just read the blog
DisTuRbEd DacHz (2:07:38 PM): mine?
JustinScc (2:07:41 PM): no
DisTuRbEd DacHz (2:07:43 PM): oh
DisTuRbEd DacHz (2:07:51 PM): yeah thats why i asked lol
DisTuRbEd DacHz (2:08:30 PM): but i did just ask kristina about it, and shared my opinion of you, just so you know and dont get mad at me...i said ur a good guy, but that i was never sure if i trusted u 100%...i know thats mean...
JustinScc (2:08:55 PM): omg
JustinScc (2:08:58 PM): fuck you
DisTuRbEd DacHz (2:09:06 PM): justin, no i said nothing bad
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DisTuRbEd DacHz (2:14:21 PM): hey, u know i love u as a friend and id never do anything hurtful. that was out of my bounds, i apologize. i can send u the convo if u want, i think i made it sound worse than it was
justinscc (2:15:42 PM): You can't take back what you told her though. just forget it
DisTuRbEd DacHz (2:19:42 PM): i didnt say anything bad, and she wasnt taking it badly about you
DisTuRbEd DacHz (2:20:06 PM): i just answered a question honestly and shared my experience, not my opinion now. it was objective
JustinScc (2:20:19 PM): then what was said? cuz it sure as hell doesnt sound good
DisTuRbEd DacHz (2:21:16 PM): i have a tour to lead at 230...ill send u the "worst" part
DisTuRbEd DacHz (2:21:24 PM): and then more later, but im gonna be late now
JustinScc (2:21:33 PM): omg
DisTuRbEd DacHz (2:22:20 PM): PocahNani (1:56:18 PM): he doesn't cheat does he?
DisTuRbEd DacHz (2:22:23 PM): DisTuRbEd DacHz (1:56:29 PM): i honestly cant say for sure
DisTuRbEd DacHz (1:56:33 PM): i suspected it
PocahNani (1:56:58 PM): oooh okay
DisTuRbEd DacHz (1:57:17 PM): i had a weird experience where a girl picked up his cell phone and said she was his gf, but supposedly that was the crazy experience he had where the two girls said he trashed their car or soemthing
DisTuRbEd DacHz (1:57:24 PM): but that was the day he broke up with me last summer
DisTuRbEd DacHz (1:57:42 PM): could be all coincidental, i dont judge
DisTuRbEd DacHz (2:22:46 PM): DisTuRbEd DacHz (1:58:01 PM): but ive never fully trusted him, even tho he is a really good guy
DisTuRbEd DacHz (1:58:08 PM): he doesnt know i think that lol
DisTuRbEd DacHz (2:22:59 PM): DisTuRbEd DacHz (1:59:54 PM): its one of those weird catch 22s, where i trusted him, but i didnt
DisTuRbEd DacHz (2:00:16 PM): anywyas, my exhale of info i done
DisTuRbEd DacHz (2:23:24 PM): that was all i said in bad context, and it was honest
DisTuRbEd DacHz (2:23:29 PM): that was my opinion last summer
DisTuRbEd DacHz (2:23:44 PM): i have to run now, im late...u can text me
JustinScc (2:24:00 PM): omfg, i told many fuckin times, those girls were stalking me
DisTuRbEd DacHz (2:24:05 PM): i kow
JustinScc (2:24:13 PM): court order and all
DisTuRbEd DacHz (2:24:14 PM): thats why i said it was coincidental
DisTuRbEd DacHz (2:24:17 PM): i know
DisTuRbEd DacHz (2:24:21 PM): but i mean, at the time
JustinScc (2:24:29 PM): omg
JustinScc (2:24:33 PM): whatever
DisTuRbEd DacHz (2:24:35 PM): i wasnt sure
JustinScc (2:24:37 PM): thx a lot
DisTuRbEd DacHz (2:24:40 PM): it was sketchy!
DisTuRbEd DacHz (2:24:43 PM): it upset me!
DisTuRbEd DacHz (2:24:53 PM): *sigh* i have to go
DisTuRbEd DacHz (2:25:00 PM): nothing i said made her think badly
DisTuRbEd DacHz (2:25:08 PM): shge feels bad if she hurt you
DisTuRbEd DacHz (2:25:14 PM): shes a good girl, i like her
DisTuRbEd DacHz (2:25:22 PM): i have to go, im very late
DisTuRbEd DacHz (2:45:07 PM): back
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