So much for the high road...
You know, for someone who said he wouldn't fuck me around, Jeremy's sure done an awful good job of it.
I was looking through crap today and discovered he removed my ability to read the JoS forums. While I pretty much expected him to be an ass about it, it pisses me off that I did more work on the thing than anyone else and yet I get thrown away like a month old pizza. And they'll be happily using my ideas while they call me a bitch and whatever other names they can think of. Providing, of course, that they even get anything much done without me. (Yes I know that sounds egotistical, but I think I had twice as many posts as anyone else on there, although of course now I can't check.)
More importantly, if it turns out that he got John to fire Jason, I'll be even more screwed. Though, money wouldn't be as tight as it is if he hadn't made Jason be the one to buy all the shit he wanted to get for me. I mean how fucked up is that? If you're gonna get shit for your girlfriend, shouldn't you be the one buying it instead of getting someone else to? Though I suppose I shouldn't be surprised, given it was Jason who actually risked his ass to come get me because Jeremy couldn't be bothered to. So he had responsibilities, that didn't keep him from making Jason ignore his responsibilities to come get me, and by the way risking his job in the process. I don't know about you, but to my way of thinking, real friends don't endanger their friends' jobs just for kicks.
He talks about how I supposedly never loved him and just used him to get away from my mom. Of course I loved him, because I was under the delusion that he'd give me as much attention in person as he did online and on the phone. Or maybe he thinks people are supposed to ignore everyone they live with. The sad thing is, I've had more conversations and just plain human contact since he left than I had while he was here. He talks about how his "real friends" support him. Of course they do, he actually talks to them. I knew more about what was in his head online than I ever did once we actually lived in the same house. It's sad when you can sleep next to someone in bed and have no fucking clue what's in their head.
And before he left, he talked about how he worked his ass off trying to make sure he could provide for me. Well, we've all heard that story before. How many doctors have ended up getting divorced and having their wives take the kids because they never bothered to pay any attention to the ones they were providing for?
The sad thing is, I came pretty damn close to going back to him the night he left, prior to his little temper tantrum where he broke his mouse. The one thing that kept me from it was the fact that he's only capable of being part of the time what Jason is all the time, and that's giving him the benefit of the doubt here considering I've yet to see it for myself.
I really didn't want to get pissed at him, considering up until recently part of me still loved him, or rather loved the him I thought he'd be instead of the him he actually was. But since all he seems able to do is bitch about me to everyone he knows and screw me around in every way he can think of, that part kinda shriveled up and died. I've learned more about his character after breaking up with him than I knew while we were still together, and it makes me pretty damn relieved that I didn't stay with him any longer than I did. If this is how he treats those he supposedly loves, I'm perfectly happy not to be one of them anymore.
I was looking through crap today and discovered he removed my ability to read the JoS forums. While I pretty much expected him to be an ass about it, it pisses me off that I did more work on the thing than anyone else and yet I get thrown away like a month old pizza. And they'll be happily using my ideas while they call me a bitch and whatever other names they can think of. Providing, of course, that they even get anything much done without me. (Yes I know that sounds egotistical, but I think I had twice as many posts as anyone else on there, although of course now I can't check.)
More importantly, if it turns out that he got John to fire Jason, I'll be even more screwed. Though, money wouldn't be as tight as it is if he hadn't made Jason be the one to buy all the shit he wanted to get for me. I mean how fucked up is that? If you're gonna get shit for your girlfriend, shouldn't you be the one buying it instead of getting someone else to? Though I suppose I shouldn't be surprised, given it was Jason who actually risked his ass to come get me because Jeremy couldn't be bothered to. So he had responsibilities, that didn't keep him from making Jason ignore his responsibilities to come get me, and by the way risking his job in the process. I don't know about you, but to my way of thinking, real friends don't endanger their friends' jobs just for kicks.
He talks about how I supposedly never loved him and just used him to get away from my mom. Of course I loved him, because I was under the delusion that he'd give me as much attention in person as he did online and on the phone. Or maybe he thinks people are supposed to ignore everyone they live with. The sad thing is, I've had more conversations and just plain human contact since he left than I had while he was here. He talks about how his "real friends" support him. Of course they do, he actually talks to them. I knew more about what was in his head online than I ever did once we actually lived in the same house. It's sad when you can sleep next to someone in bed and have no fucking clue what's in their head.
And before he left, he talked about how he worked his ass off trying to make sure he could provide for me. Well, we've all heard that story before. How many doctors have ended up getting divorced and having their wives take the kids because they never bothered to pay any attention to the ones they were providing for?
The sad thing is, I came pretty damn close to going back to him the night he left, prior to his little temper tantrum where he broke his mouse. The one thing that kept me from it was the fact that he's only capable of being part of the time what Jason is all the time, and that's giving him the benefit of the doubt here considering I've yet to see it for myself.
I really didn't want to get pissed at him, considering up until recently part of me still loved him, or rather loved the him I thought he'd be instead of the him he actually was. But since all he seems able to do is bitch about me to everyone he knows and screw me around in every way he can think of, that part kinda shriveled up and died. I've learned more about his character after breaking up with him than I knew while we were still together, and it makes me pretty damn relieved that I didn't stay with him any longer than I did. If this is how he treats those he supposedly loves, I'm perfectly happy not to be one of them anymore.