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so, it looks like my daddy will be having surgery. We'll find out for sure next week. He's going in later this week and they're gonna try cortizone treatments for his spine, but if that doesn't work, then surgery. Just one more thing for me to think about. I really hope they don't have to do the surgery though.
aand...I've decided that with my boy, I just need to sit his fat ass down and say I deserve better than the treatment I've been getting from you. When I'm having a hard time, I deserve someone who's willing to be there for me. I don't require a lot, just a little bit of time and the feeling that you care. Honestly, asking for some time sunday was pretty much the only thing i've really asked of him. I understand that he's busy, I'm busy too, however, if he can take some time to play halo or magic most days or can take time to go hang out with the boys, he could give up about an hour or so a couple days a week and spend it with me. seriously, I don't ask much and I've been trying to give him space adn not be pushy, but this is ridiculous. Nina said I should just get over him, but thats a lot easier said than done. I do need to talk to him though, and tell him this. and if he doesn't work on shaping up, we're through. I don't need to deal with this, and sure, he doesn't really need or want to deal with my shit either, but i won't dump it on him unless its an emergency. I just want him to be there. So, I'm going to be confident and stand on my own here. I deserve to be treated better and don't have to take crap.
aand...I've decided that with my boy, I just need to sit his fat ass down and say I deserve better than the treatment I've been getting from you. When I'm having a hard time, I deserve someone who's willing to be there for me. I don't require a lot, just a little bit of time and the feeling that you care. Honestly, asking for some time sunday was pretty much the only thing i've really asked of him. I understand that he's busy, I'm busy too, however, if he can take some time to play halo or magic most days or can take time to go hang out with the boys, he could give up about an hour or so a couple days a week and spend it with me. seriously, I don't ask much and I've been trying to give him space adn not be pushy, but this is ridiculous. Nina said I should just get over him, but thats a lot easier said than done. I do need to talk to him though, and tell him this. and if he doesn't work on shaping up, we're through. I don't need to deal with this, and sure, he doesn't really need or want to deal with my shit either, but i won't dump it on him unless its an emergency. I just want him to be there. So, I'm going to be confident and stand on my own here. I deserve to be treated better and don't have to take crap.