this is ridiculous

[onurbedroomfloo]

today was fine, everythings been fine
and yet suddenly i feel completely overwhelmed and like crying

its pathetic that my parents have that effect on me
i am sick of their bullshit
and their "talks" trying to sort things out
they tried counseling and it didnt work
neither is happy
and its perfectly clear
i obviously would rather have them together
but at this point, its more painful for me for them to be together
i cant handle this bullshit anymore
i have enough to deal with
i dont need their problems too
and i also dont need their lies
when i ask what happened, dont say "oh nothing"
thats BULLSHIT!!! im not a five year old anymore
you dont need to protect me
lying to me hurts me more
i wish i was anywhere but here
i cant wait till kait comes home this weekend
and i cant wait till i leave to go away with her next week
i need a break
...from all of it