i think that we've got what it takes to get this heart start beating again
so, i know i change my livejournal like every six months but i needed a change. some people die their hair, i create a new livejournal. but this is a new start for a new school.
this summer has had its ups and downs. i won't go into too much detail because most of you have already heard it all. im really excited to be starting a new school in a month or so. im nervous, anxious, and a little scared and scatter-brained right now. but that's expected i think.
im learning who i can count on in my life and who i cant. im learning who is always going to be there for me and who wont. im learning who i can depend on. im introducing new people into my life and so far im liking the results of doing such. im also trying to do things i wouldnt normally do. im trying to trust people. it's so hard. but im really trying. and i guess i can start with this person. but it's almost physically impossible for me to open my heart again. im trying not to need people. im trying to just depend on myself. not expect anything from anyone but myself. not putting my well-being in the hands of others; always looking out for myself.
im trying not to focus on *love*. im content with *like* right now. im trying not to rush love. i am only 19 and i have time. and just because you care about someone doesn't mean you have to love them right away. i think that's the problem we have as teenagers/young adults. we think we HAVE to be in love right when we start dating someone or talking to someone. im trying to remember that love takes time and it will come.
im having fun though. im trying to. im doing things for me. im trying to let people in and trust that their intentions are what they say they are. im trying to stick up for myself. im trying.
i guess this new journal symbolizes new beginnings both mentally and with my life.
this summer has had its ups and downs. i won't go into too much detail because most of you have already heard it all. im really excited to be starting a new school in a month or so. im nervous, anxious, and a little scared and scatter-brained right now. but that's expected i think.
im learning who i can count on in my life and who i cant. im learning who is always going to be there for me and who wont. im learning who i can depend on. im introducing new people into my life and so far im liking the results of doing such. im also trying to do things i wouldnt normally do. im trying to trust people. it's so hard. but im really trying. and i guess i can start with this person. but it's almost physically impossible for me to open my heart again. im trying not to need people. im trying to just depend on myself. not expect anything from anyone but myself. not putting my well-being in the hands of others; always looking out for myself.
im trying not to focus on *love*. im content with *like* right now. im trying not to rush love. i am only 19 and i have time. and just because you care about someone doesn't mean you have to love them right away. i think that's the problem we have as teenagers/young adults. we think we HAVE to be in love right when we start dating someone or talking to someone. im trying to remember that love takes time and it will come.
im having fun though. im trying to. im doing things for me. im trying to let people in and trust that their intentions are what they say they are. im trying to stick up for myself. im trying.
i guess this new journal symbolizes new beginnings both mentally and with my life.