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NO ONE is perfect.
NOTHING is perfect.
I feel like I've spent so much time trying to make sure that I keep the important people in my life happy. I guess I've failed.
My flaws are insignificant to me. I look at the things that I do and don't realize that I'm hurting. Its a bitch to come to that realization.
It isn't that I ever assumed perfection. I just overlooked a lot.
TO YOU:
I am sorry for being a disappointment. I am sorry for causing you pain or making you feel neglected. I don't realize these things when they're happening. I have nothing to say. I cannot apologize. I can't go back. There is no solution but for me to step up and take responsibility for this. For what its worth, you are one of the most important people in my life. Even if you don't see it (because I am terrible at showing it), I love you with all of my heart. You changed my world. I will be grateful forever. I want things to be better. I want things to go back to the way they were and I'll do whatever I have to, to make that happen. PLEASE give me that chance.
-me
This past week has been full of everything. I've been happy and pissed off and stressed out and regretful and hurt and sick and confused. I need to get away. I wish I had the option.
Last night was a highlight.
I hope tonight will be, too.
I need to clean my room and sulk. I think I'll do that now.
NOTHING is perfect.
I feel like I've spent so much time trying to make sure that I keep the important people in my life happy. I guess I've failed.
My flaws are insignificant to me. I look at the things that I do and don't realize that I'm hurting. Its a bitch to come to that realization.
It isn't that I ever assumed perfection. I just overlooked a lot.
TO YOU:
I am sorry for being a disappointment. I am sorry for causing you pain or making you feel neglected. I don't realize these things when they're happening. I have nothing to say. I cannot apologize. I can't go back. There is no solution but for me to step up and take responsibility for this. For what its worth, you are one of the most important people in my life. Even if you don't see it (because I am terrible at showing it), I love you with all of my heart. You changed my world. I will be grateful forever. I want things to be better. I want things to go back to the way they were and I'll do whatever I have to, to make that happen. PLEASE give me that chance.
-me
This past week has been full of everything. I've been happy and pissed off and stressed out and regretful and hurt and sick and confused. I need to get away. I wish I had the option.
Last night was a highlight.
I hope tonight will be, too.
I need to clean my room and sulk. I think I'll do that now.