stay beautiful, baby ♥
today was ridiculously too long.. yesterday was probably longer but my mind is stuck in the now.. i just got home and im just trying to relax after a really draining past few days.. in addition to my grandma being in the hospital again my mom has been stirring up insane drama.. last night i was at kristens sweet 16 trying to get my mind off of things so i missed most of it.. i don't feel like sharing too much.. but things are pretty fucked up.. my mom was released today, against our wishes.. im so mad how little people listen to us because we are relatively young.. i have had to act like three times my age for so long but when it comes to this THIS that is so important to everyone.. could save her goddamn life i'm treated like a fucking toddler........i cant even start to describe what im feeling right now its all over the place. i'm so exhausted at even the thought of HER. i cant even imagien what she looks like right now, how she feels.. what the fuck shes thinking.. i hate her so much that i cant even breathe but at the same time i cant sleep thinking what would i do if she wasnt around anymore.. i cant do thiiiiiis .. i am completely consumed with everything that is going on. not to mention my indecision about a bunch of other things...... sighhh. ROAR.. but mostly sigh.. so i sit.. with my candles.. and i think but somehow i feel like im not thinking about anything at all yuck.