you dont have to aknowledge this
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i have so much (yet so little?) going on right now, and I know I'm freaking out and I know It's all coming down on me. But for whatever reason it hasnt really showed itself yet, or im just so beyond frustrated that i dont even feel it. It's weird, Im just..like...nothing, I just AM, and theres nothing going on in "feelings" land. I dont have any feelings, and its strange. It's like I just dont know waht to do in general so I'm just....here. I dont have any feelings about anything. Actually I'm really pissed, but I'm just walking around like my existence is so menial. ha. this is so weird, i dont feel like doing ANYTHING, i dont want to do NOTHING though..ya know? idk wow im crazy, but you all can bare with me cause i rarely do these ACTUAL thoughts and whatnot entries. So I'm due for a lame rant.
anyway thats about it. and i dont think talking or anything at all is going to help this, i just hope things feel different tommorow, I just hope things FEEL at all.
i have so much (yet so little?) going on right now, and I know I'm freaking out and I know It's all coming down on me. But for whatever reason it hasnt really showed itself yet, or im just so beyond frustrated that i dont even feel it. It's weird, Im just..like...nothing, I just AM, and theres nothing going on in "feelings" land. I dont have any feelings, and its strange. It's like I just dont know waht to do in general so I'm just....here. I dont have any feelings about anything. Actually I'm really pissed, but I'm just walking around like my existence is so menial. ha. this is so weird, i dont feel like doing ANYTHING, i dont want to do NOTHING though..ya know? idk wow im crazy, but you all can bare with me cause i rarely do these ACTUAL thoughts and whatnot entries. So I'm due for a lame rant.
anyway thats about it. and i dont think talking or anything at all is going to help this, i just hope things feel different tommorow, I just hope things FEEL at all.