I need to get this off of my chest.
Now a lot of you have come up to me and said "exlenne, you don't really seem like you're into it. You don't really seem like you want to post." And you said "Why? What was the reason for that?" And I said to myself ... I don't know. I don't know why I can't be ... I don't understand it. So I had a heart to heart with myself and I said "exlenne, what is the reason? Why are you having such a hard time?" And this is true ... last year, there were a lot of people for me to hate. And it was easy for me to motivate and find individuals that I disliked and it gave me power. It gave me a reason to want to post, it gave me a reason to want to fight, it gave me a reason to want to remove people from ontdbb. Then I thought ... so why haven't I had that motivation? And I thought it was because I really liked everyone here. But then I realized ... it was the OPPOSITE of that. I can't find an individual to hate, because I hate you ALL. There's no one I hate more than anyone else.