I'm out to the most important people in my life (my aunt, online friends, etc.), which was awkward, but.. you know, what're you going to do? It worked out. My aunt loves my girlfriend and considers her a second niece, and everybody gets along and I love it. :)
However, I'm totally not out to my immediate family. They're... pretty homophobic, and even though I don't really talk to them that much (or at all in the case of my father and brother), I'm afraid of what they'll say or do. Mostly I don't want to answer stupid questions, or get snide remarks about it. My family is really emotionally abusive, so yeah.
I'm... semi-out at school? I don't talk about it much, but I try not to shy away from talking about "my girlfriend" instead of "my friend." It's hard sometimes. I worry because, you know, if they're homophobic.. they control my grades. But I try.
But! I'm going to celebrate small victories. Like that my aunt loves my girlfriend and lets her stay over all the time. And that my girlfriend and I kiss and hug in public all the time here and no one cares; it's beautiful.
That's awesome. :) My school is.. not so much on that, but it's in NYC so I guess most people aren't that bothered?
Ugh, seriously. The worst part is that my aunt and I (and my girlfriend!) are moving down to Kentucky next year for my aunt's work, and my mom wants to come get a house with my aunt there, and.. yeah, if that happens I'm going to have to tell my mom, otherwise things will be even more weird and awkward than usual. :\ idk what to do with that, but it's a few years away so for now I'm ignoring it.
However, I'm totally not out to my immediate family. They're... pretty homophobic, and even though I don't really talk to them that much (or at all in the case of my father and brother), I'm afraid of what they'll say or do. Mostly I don't want to answer stupid questions, or get snide remarks about it. My family is really emotionally abusive, so yeah.
I'm... semi-out at school? I don't talk about it much, but I try not to shy away from talking about "my girlfriend" instead of "my friend." It's hard sometimes. I worry because, you know, if they're homophobic.. they control my grades. But I try.
But! I'm going to celebrate small victories. Like that my aunt loves my girlfriend and lets her stay over all the time. And that my girlfriend and I kiss and hug in public all the time here and no one cares; it's beautiful.
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Ugh, seriously. The worst part is that my aunt and I (and my girlfriend!) are moving down to Kentucky next year for my aunt's work, and my mom wants to come get a house with my aunt there, and.. yeah, if that happens I'm going to have to tell my mom, otherwise things will be even more weird and awkward than usual. :\ idk what to do with that, but it's a few years away so for now I'm ignoring it.
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