the one where i have to take my mind off of it.

[onstage]

As a spin-off of the interview meme, this is going to be the FAQ thread.

Ask me anything. Absurdly personal, generally random, anything. And I'll answer in the comments.

ANYTHING.
Let's make this work, people.

Comments

[onstage]

1. I think I really only truly realized it last semester. I mean, for as long as I can remember, the only time I've ever felt like I was doing anything with meaning, or worth my time, or that I was good at, it's been theatre. It's been being on stage. It's been that rush when the lights go up, and that bittersweet kick in the teeth when the lights go down. What else was I gonna do when I went to college? All I wanna do is be that girl in the movies. A little farfetched, I know, but it's what I thought I wanted. And then last semester, I'm here, and everyone's good, kind of. And then the kicker comes. They all think I'm better. I'm better than them. I know that's egomanical, but I believe in what I'm doing now. I believe that I'm good. I believe that I'm better than most, and that I belong here. I'm an actress. It's all I can do. It's all I'll ever do.

2. Because sometimes there is no other way out, and in 5 years, and one month, and twenty days, maybe I'll understand.

3. There's something about her that just irks me. It just rubs me the wrong way. Maybe it's her absurdly brash attitude, or the amazing amount of ego she possesses, but I just dislike her. I find her repulsive, both in the way she speaks and acts and in the way she carries her politics as a badge of "LOOK AT ME, FUCKERS." I dislike her because there's a big chance she'll get the nomination, and she'll alienate enough people that we'll face another 4 years of republican presidents. And I simply cannot have that.

4. Um. Well, I've talked about my virginity. And the whole acting thing is aired out. Ah, here we go. I have a bad habit. Up until recently, I've never been in a relationship where I haven't cheated on the guy. I mean, there've been flingy things where I haven't, but never a relationship. Also, I kind of have an ego problem. Virgin with no chin? Hate her. I have to be better than her. I tend to judge people, and I'm not as close with people once I find out that they're not as talented as I think they should be? I'm not a good person.