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I am in so far over my head it's unbelievable. I feel like when I graduated from high school, I started putting my head underground like an ostrich, thinking I could be safe from the terrors of adulthood. Then I just kept digging and ignoring my own stupidity. And now I've dug myself into a hole so deep I can't even see out anymore. The only thing I know is life like this. There is nothing else because I've done this to myself. You know that feeling? When you wish you could just jump off a bridge, and you know you won't do it. But thinking about it just feels so damn good that you start realizing you're not even brave enough to do it.